The Person At War With Themself

 Hillary Clinton once asked "What does it matter now? The answer is because it does. We are the subject of the damage done to us in someone else's war with themselves, collateral, and at the expense of who we are. It is territorial and it is power to take over! There are no emotions in war. There is no feeling... there is no conscious when it comes to blindsiding.

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 Take my heart there is nothing else. It's all I have!!!it's never been enough for the one at war with themself because it can not be controlled. Tried and truly manipulated but not controlled!

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Another View...

I think of one of my favorite movies, "You Got Mail" a simple New York girl who lives in her mother's shoes trying to replicate a life that her mother loved breathed, and lived for... knowledge and the discovery of getting lost in the pages of books that are time and told over and over. Any intelligent woman would kill for Kathleen Kelley's apartment and her free spirit. The optimism that lives within her spirit is so naive with a freshness that the world wants to crush. Always hopeful always full of authenticity. She knows no other way than to be herself. Of course, the big bad guy, who looks for opportunity first is there ready to crush her hopes. Run her down, belittle her for her dream, and railroad her to the point of exhaustion needing to win at all costs because, in the end, it's about him and what he can take from her not only to prove a point but to show a city how he accomplished "bigness with image" and gaslighted a community into thinking that is what they needed.

As they bond through a series of catfishing emails through the internet without her knowing who is communicating with her; they both learn essential lessons about each other. Each is a product of their environment. Behind the scenes, she can not understand why anyone would want to destroy a small shop that others so enjoyed. Egos and bigger is not better... there are no quaint and personal touches to entities that bulldoze and bulldog their way to make a place for the show. In a scene where they meet at a dinner party after knowing he is the person trying to take her down... her patience runs thin and she is determined to "take it to the mats" as he explains "It's not personal, its business" and she explains but its personal to me...

As the movie continues and as they keep running into each other realizing a softer side of life does exist, he says, "Oh shop girl, how I wish you could forgive me over this one little thing" She replies, that's the thing, it is not so little" {and anyone with half a heart would understand that phrase}

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I have preached numerous times, that the deeper something connects to us and affects our lives the stronger we hold on to (the emotions and feelings associated with) all the things done to us. It becomes a time stamp in our hippocampus.{the part of the brain that stores memory} The parts that complicate these memories is the heart and how through various acts, life's happenstance, or on purpose with intent once the heart has been impacted and crushed there is no other place to put the pieces. Especially when someone goes out of their way backhanded and devious to cause malintent. The reasoning ... there is none. {to prove a point. I will show you!} Other than selfish motives; it serves them and them only. The collateral in the damage done by the person at war with themselves! To gain coercive control!

What does it matter now... because it does! {To understand evil and to realize what undermining looks like}In real life and in fiction, both resulting in very different outcomes.

All is fair in love and war is not justified, it is the coward's way of escaping accountability and taking no responsibility for the maneuvers and the motives associated with any acts to people affected and involved that caused severe harm.

Collateral damage at the expense of the person at war with themself! #nuffsaid


Kitryn Marie

Maybe the above only makes sense to me but guess why that's I'm the one writing it!











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