Pretty In Pink... Perfect In Paisley!

It Ain't Over Til it's Over...  Where one situation ends another begins... Where one struggle ends another is created... Where there is life and or any sign of it... there is gonna be complications. Nothing is easy... but if your heart, soul and "health" is involved in it... " It ain't over til it's over." and some struggles worth the fight. It is not easy living with a chronic illness. Each day is a different kind of struggle. It has been an enormous mental strain and an emotional upheaval of wits. Combine that with extreme heartbreak and a person would wonder why I even bother to get out of bed but I do, each and every day... maybe a little more mentally strong because I have to brace myself on how I am going to feel by mid morning, mid afternoon and mid evening. Oh, the struggle is real. Challenged by tiredness, I get up. I go and I pretend a lot. I force myself to find the energy to just go do! A few years back while having a conflicted rel

In a recent conversation with my sister, she said, " It shouldn't be this hard. "  In regards to what our heart feels and what we have lost over a series of years.  A running joke amongst us girls, "It's the Carmen Curse" I will tell, Carmen was our mother. Her pursuit of men and fame came with a very heavy price. It took her life. Like the poets all say, it was the thing she loved that killed her . I laugh, shaking my head listening to the haunting words from my grandma... on love, life and reality. " Do not rock the boat. If you can avoid an argument do so.  Love somebody who loves you more. It is just as easy to love a poor man than it is to love a rich man." These little wit-isms go on and on and on... Probably my favorite... " Kit, you don't love him you feel sorry for him ." (that was her take on my grade school / high school love) Looking for signs of life... At almost 55, the pursuit of happiness has had its challenges.