YOU CAN FIND A TOPIC THAT INTEREST YOU
This is my second attempt tonight to write. Earlier in the day, after coming home not feeling great trying to push through this ick, I figured I'd sit here and pound out some thoughts. It didn't happen, too dizzy. So I made some chicken soup and made a video instead. 😳 It doesn't have to make sense. Trust me! Whatever this ick is it will pass after it lingers of course for 2 weeks. That my friends is the beauty in having a form of leukemia. Those white cells just don't quite have the stamina it needs. They will go on over time and overdrive and I will drag through til it's gone. I'll be fine! I'll be fine! (fingers crossed and a prayer)
What would be so important I need to get this out tonight? You ask! And I will answer because the small and narrow-minded in the back need a few things repeated! Apparently "some" do not understand the meaning of secondary learning or YOU CAN FIND A TOPIC THAT INTEREST YOU and read and study on the subject! (said with sarcasm) to educate yourself on matters that not only help heal you but also outline the material that you have learned and teach it to others who need to be inspired, educated, enriched, and entertained! A person becomes an expert in the matter when they have had experience with it and come to terms with the higher level of cause and effect by learning through terminology and its meanings. It takes a certain amount of intelligence to have this type of interest and apply it to a teaching manner! For some subjects, you can become a literary genius by gaining knowledge like this and only those who do not have the same intellect or the wherewithal to broaden their scope of perception have a difficult time with the fact a person can be this ingenuous! After all, if you are a couch potato on numerous psychotic drugs to help you cope with getting up in the morning and facing the real life that they chose to participate in there isn't much open space in the gray matter that is not drug-induced to understand this concept.
A title; is a name given for learning such subject. You need no huge degree or document to take that information and utilize the attainments pertaining to ENRICHING a person's life through teaching lessons, like art! Art and its theory can be expressed in a variety of mediums... such as consulting, coaching, speaking, and writing! but yet painting and journaling in the cut-and-paste method seems to have been a proven method for finding a direction and purpose. Seeing a dream or a goal put in a form happens to trigger parts of the brain that stimulate conception and the powers to be that want it to come to fruition. The average person who lacks this erudition has a very hard time understanding the power behind it. Also, those who have a shrunken hippocampus, due to those psychotic drugs to help them cope with life can not retain the why! If you are numb by any factor you feel no desire to elevate your standard of observation and wisdom!
It just so happened, that I was already an artist. I already knew how to teach! I studied journalism and communication in my 2 years of college so therefore I could speak and write! It was only after a miserably failed 8 year relationship, trying to understand the scope of a personality disorder and the cruel effects of narcissism and its endured abuse, that I chose narcissism as my subject to study! and I studied hard! (2 years) and because of my association with it, I became an expert in it...allowing me to TEACH on the matter in my VISION BOARD CLASS that I use as a TOOL so students can see its effects and learn the red flags! in the relationship part of the class. Now a serial dater would not understand this concept nor would a person who can not be alone! The subject pertaining to those would be abandonment and entitlement issues and unless we are discussing avoidant attachments or emotional dysregulations I try to stay clear of the matters.
But let us discuss trauma, drama and chaos... or the things that occur with not being the center of attention! Let's talk about those adult tempertanrums because someone did not get to hear what they wanted done or said. Let's talk about the unglued factor or the feeling of neglect because there was no urgency or importance to what they felt they deserved. Some would say, "I don't have the broadband to understand that" It takes too much thought to put into that type of psychology.
Or let us put out on the table for discussion, the "I did this for you aspect." and I expect you to reciprocate in some grand fashion because I was inconvenienced and had to reach deep to do something for another who was in great need. As a life coach, yes a life coach! I would ask, "If you expected something grand in return or in some fashion, who did you really do it for? So you could get recognition for the gesture or because in some unconditional manner, you wanted to help sincerely? A narc will do something grand then of course throw it in your face to use as a weapon furthering an injury and already hurt Achilles heel. In fact, they will dig up things that have no bearing on what's going on and gut-punch you with a cause to hurt you further. It's power and its manipulation! and my cut-off game is strong!
I don't think I need to tell anyone when doing a good deed to help someone in all sincerity, you are not to expect anything in return,,, other than a thank you and I appreciate that you could help! (but that's common courtesy and sense, right?}
Also realizing when you are reaching into your own personal depths of hell because it is not self-serving any longer, this person feels so entitled to bash, belittle, put down, trash your plight because they have self-appointed themselves God! {more power and more control} It is a sick game! It makes a person understand why this type has no real friends or why people keep their distance.
We all walk different walks in this life. Not everyone has the compassion, understanding, or intelligence to understand the many personality traits each human has! Some good and some very bad! Psychology is very intricate and a person who studies this... WOW! DEEP! LOL
***Also while on the subject of a narc; they will pick someone (supply) who has been through hell and back, tragedy and loss just so they can play the hero to. #thesavior They eventually settle on the one that will tolerate their bad behavior and traits. It really is what's in it for them. How can this supply give them what they can not do for themself? They have no real pride because now as they age their looks are fading and what charm they once used, no longer works. They choose someone who looks aged, weathered and worn because it makes them look good. (or so they think) Eventually, they get bored and there is no game needed and they retreat back into the miserable person with low self-esteem they always were. They have no standard therefore almost anyone will do! Because they can not be alone! The mask falls off and the abusive recycles. It is a personality disorder. They are not born this way, they are made. Usually product of the environment and repeated mimicked behavior from a parent. Eventually, they turn into the parent, they did not want to become!
Nonetheless, here I sit... methodically planning out some classes for ENRICHMENT! Art and its glory residing in many mediums BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I STUDIED!
Here is the crazy thing, once you learn something, you can never unlearn it! and once you educate yourself on a subject NO ONE CAN TAKE IT AWAY FROM YOU! There is power in knowledge!
So do yourself a favor... educate yourself! Just because you can't understand it doesn't mean you get to chastise someone for learning something you have no clue to!
kitryn_marie@yahoo.com to learn more and to schedule a class! Painting or Vision Board based in psychology and life coaching!
Kitryn Marie
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