Pretty In Pink... Perfect In Paisley!

 Well, this is where I am not; dodging a hurricane (done it twice. Nola and Pensacola) and Not rerouting a flash flood in Kentucky on my way to Tennessee. Although I didn't appreciate the Mountains of rain and fog in Georgia, I too am not there! Trust me I hear my suitcases calling... The goal has always been to live a life you do not need to escape from! {I hear people from a distance screaming at silent decibels trying to escape. I remind but you chose that! } I say to my friend who I've been hanging with, ya know the one from 40 years ago, her mom passed last week and I share every one of her sentiments, It is not easy! Never is... but in my silly humor I say to make her laugh, I'm itching to go to Table Rock! Doesn't that sound fun? With no pause, she yells hell no that sounds terrible! I laugh out loud, she loves a good party. I love nothing but silence, tranquility and the water! Weather no mind... you're just gone! Countless times, I have been to Table Rock!

 It's not what we do but who we are? Has anyone checked in on Barnacle Bob? Has the crone poisoned him yet? #humor #notsorry As a writer, I can spin It any way I choose! It's all the years invested in relationships and situations that leave that indelible print that can not be erased only because it caused a PTSD that can not be undone! It is the trigger of situations that occurred and the flashbacks that happen are something I really wish on no one! #truth The lies to confuse and manipulate through verbal abuse and emotional turmoil because one could not get what he wanted through a series of tactics to be seen, gain attention, and prove he had something of significant value to offer. (while taking from another) Although no one wants to be flogged and exposed maybe as he truly set out to hurt and humiliate; where I had nothing but a great interest in him and his, he probably should have thought about what he was doing at the time. and I like I tried to teach his oldest, It is

 Good Lord, I heard my Gram's voice this morning! In her funny tone, she says, because my Gram was witty; "I always liked Ronald Regan" What would that have to do with anything is beyond me? That is the thing when you are clairvoyant... messages, phrases, and hearing glimpses from those gone, you have to leave interpretation and the deciphering play out until you understand the message/meaning. {I guess I liked Ronald Regan too. He rode horses and his wife was big-time into astrology!} Ha! An actor who played significant roles in his life to shape a nation that needed to be reformed. "Mr Gorbajev, take down the wall" is about the only thing I can remember. Again why that would have anything to do with what is going on in my world is beyond my scope at the moment! *************************************************************** My Gram was hell-bent on teaching us manners and how to be poised. She taught, us how to be a lady, with closed legs and closed mouths! (t

 Hillary Clinton once asked "What does it matter now? The answer is because it does. We are the subject of the damage done to us in someone else's war with themselves, collateral, and at the expense of who we are. It is territorial and it is power to take over! There are no emotions in war. There is no feeling... there is no conscious when it comes to blindsiding. ************************************************************************  Take my heart there is nothing else. It's all I have!!!it's never been enough for the one at war with themself because it can not be controlled. Tried and truly manipulated but not controlled! ***************************************************************************** Another View... I think of one of my favorite movies, "You Got Mail" a simple New York girl who lives in her mother's shoes trying to replicate a life that her mother loved breathed, and lived for... knowledge and the discovery of getting lost in the pages

 I laugh at the immaturity that social media has brought forefront! All the woman that have blocked their newly significant exes as if his past behavior will not present itself... in 10, 9, 8 7, 6, 5 so on and so forth! Like a timebomb, she will wonder what the hell happened and how did I get here? #thecon I think of the poor girl I coached a few years back. She was in such emotional turmoil because her husband used her in every sense of the word. To the point where she was so depressed she could not decipher up from down. A cute girl who at one time was vibrant. She lived life with flair and now was nothing but a domestic prisoner and a doormat for his intolerant behavior. It was not the life she signed up for and her board was a mix match of a life now and how she needed to find herself. A conjunct board of being lost in the world's shuffle. This is what narcissism does to a person. It robs them of their identity, energy, and joy. Bare bottomed out and bare minimum given to her b

 Getting the dates and months in a consecutive order regarding all circumstances is crucial to facts. When you tell the truth, you never have to keep up with the lies. I recently reconnected with an old friend from 40 years ago. My ex-husband and her deceased husband went to school together and each of our older children went to school together in Dogtown. Typical for true friendship you pick back up where you left off and fill in the missing years. Sadly her husband was/is very well known in the ironwork industry. Sadly and tragically he lost his life in a freak accident. Usually, she and I get together once a week and if not an every other day text of how are things? Her mother, God love her is on hospice. Something I am familiar with because of my dad and caring for him for the last 3 months of his life. Each family has some tragic story about illness or a life that went wrong and someone could not cope. By today's standard, it's everywhere! Nonetheless, we laugh, we tell st

 A little worn for wear, it feels good to write again. Where my voice has gone silent, my thoughts run rampant. It shakes the cobwebs out and rattles the neurotransmitters making all connections cognitive. Clear thoughts with pure intention. I do not operate in mal-ease. It is not in my spirit. To say what I mean and to mean what I say, no one to protect or no reason not to express to be creative. An outlet that I have learned to make a stipend, and to offer a real picture into matters. How a reader deciphers depends on how they connect and resonate with the words put in place. All day yesterday I heard my Gram's voice in my head. At the moment I can't even recall what was said.(It's early and it will come to me later) There have been times I have clear clairvoyance. I know things and things are said to me. Depending on what is happening in my life or what I need to be warned about. It's a real thing! I can not imagine not having this gift at this point. My past person

 Wed ay? Sept 11, in today's conversation I personally did not have a mention or a reference to this date. Sad the further we get away from it, a younger generation that makes no note of its tragic significance. The further we move away from any tragedy, the more it becomes a tragedy to those whose lives are impacted. The longer you are in a situation the longer it impacts your core and the longer you hang on to it. The wound is still there it just becomes easier to deal with and usually the scars are not visible to most but to the one where the travesty occurred. #lifecoaching  I have been up since 4AM. Oh, that Frances and her howl, screech, and high pitch. I need to pee, and I need to pee now. 2 weeks in and puppy training is coming along. She is already mostly potty trained. I'm working on her inside voice and finding a routine towards "wth are we gonna do this winter" The girls know their spot and with the cooler mornings, they have already eyed my blanket! Franc