Pretty In Pink... Perfect In Paisley!

As I sit here this morning on this chilly Saturday Nov 24th, I prepare for the days ahead and for the new months that will follow. It is that season of expectations and hype. A season for love and joy; tinsle and sparkle. It is the time for magic and a time for miracles. It is also a time of year where so many people become depressed and a deep seated grief steps in. It is that time of year a person feels so alone and a heart breaks for what once was or worse what one has always wished for. Personally I wish they would stop with the Christmas car commercials! I don't know about you but most the people I know live paycheck to paycheck and car purchases are most likely not in the equation for the holiday. The families I know still are struggling with making ends meet and the emotional stress they put themselves through trying to buy the latest and greatest for their kids. I don't know a soul who gets matching vehicles on Christmas morning! Shame on the car industry for such a f...

There are certain things that I have been known to get on my preaching box! Yes, I have been known to beat a dead horse until I get to the root of the cause.   A s I seek out every avenue until I find clarification on the matters I need to know! See those matters are important to me! Those matters have gravely affected my life and continue to do so! Those matters are close to my heart and are embedded in my soul. See there are soul contracts... things that have been written so far before you or I became familiar with: what it means to really have a soul. The physical world depends on living with heart but the transcendental being that has been put here on this earth at this time, for a purpose, their life depends on living with soul. Let me first say very loudly; Unfinished business... does not stop on this earth plane. Karma does follow from life to life until reckoned with so if some wrongdoing has been done in your current life and it has not been dealt with, I am here ...

In order to be your most authentic self, one has to get as real and raw as one can be with self! (Sounds like a simple statement right?) Setting the tone and looking at the view at hand and the view one has pictured in one's head and then clearly stating out loud the vision to be seen... The Big Picture one has planned. The big picture one has always had! It should be easy to see, recognize, what a person does not want. It is a process of elimination, mistakes, trial, and errors and boredom! It is the things that a person gets bored with because it no longer stimulates certain body parts, the mind or ignites the soul. The situation can no longer be manipulated to work in one's favor. If that person is not hearing what they want to hear or getting the response one feels they need, they will subject them self to Simple trades off's, cheap thrills and any high seeking entity that is quick to fix a situation hoping it will fill their gaping hole of EMPTY because they cannot...

Right now with what you have to work with, look in the mirror. Assess your life! Does it add up? Can you look at where you are and with everything you have done for yourself and may have done towards another good or bad, does it make sense? Do your actions equal the sum of being a decent human being who has done the very best within oneself to do what has been best for another? Do you realize self-executive decisions are not for you to make? You do not get to make a decision for another person's life without fully understanding the consequences of that action! If the action has been self-serving to get you off the hook from a responsibility or to get you out of a situation so you do not have to take accountability for the harm and damaged you caused, one needs to look in the mirror and seriously question all motives! How do you live with yourself knowing what you did? What you caused? and all the emotional upheaval that happened because of________________...

Why can't the truth just be told? Why does a person feel the need to sneak, hide, deceive another? What goes through that individuals mind? Do they think, "well if I do this, they will never know and if they never find out, I can get away with it! and if they don't find out then it really never happened right?" Is this the way a liar thinks? Is this the way a con person believes? Somehow did I miss the memo on how the narcissistic player's handbook is written? How foolish can one person be that he/she feels the truth never will surface? Oh, love, the secret does not stay with Charlotte! As I was taking my life coaching classes I learned so much! I loved learning the why's into what I had seen in full action! I also love to write, it has made some of my best character references and storylines because art is life in full motion. Right in front of everyone's eyes sh.t happens and the ones that buy into the lie have been made out to be the biggest fool yet!...

If it cost me my peace, I am done spending! If you knew how long it took me to rebuild my world of calm, you would understand why there is no room for anger at all! As if growing up in a violent household was not enough; the 8-year explosive relationship I was in was the icing on the cake! If anger erupted something was getting broke or I was being attacked both emotionally and or physically. I will not ever take that chance again! EVER! In a world gone absolutely mad, I am aware of all the dangers and gun-toting idiots that are out there and If I say I am afraid then I know afraid and I know exactly what fear looks like . Staring down the barrel of a gun or having a weapon brandished in your face NO ONE on this earth should have to encounter! In my last position that I worked for... one of my own customers drunk and stupid pulled a gun out yielding and yelling and pointing in my direction. I have seen stupid and foolish and where anger lives anything can...