If It Cost Me My Peace... I Am Broke!
If it cost me my peace, I am done spending! If you knew how long it took me to rebuild my world of calm, you would understand why there is no room for anger at all! As if growing up in a violent household was not enough; the 8-year explosive relationship I was in was the icing on the cake! If anger erupted something was getting broke or I was being attacked both emotionally and or physically. I will not ever take that chance again! EVER!
In a world gone absolutely mad, I am aware of all the dangers and gun-toting idiots that are out there and If I say I am afraid then I know afraid and I know exactly what fear looks like. Staring down the barrel of a gun or having a weapon brandished in your face NO ONE on this earth should have to encounter! In my last position that I worked for... one of my own customers drunk and stupid pulled a gun out yielding and yelling and pointing in my direction. I have seen stupid and foolish and where anger lives anything can happen and I refuse to be in any situation that has the possibilities of an explosive outcome. If it cost me my peace! The door is closed and my emotional account empty!
If anger lives in an environment then it is time to completely change the environment! If there is an intolerance of behavior than it is time to change the situation to a more conducive way of life! There is no amount of money on this earth that a well educated common sense individual would want to put up with. NONE! What you allow continues and not only are you putting yourself in harm's way but you endangering the well being and well fair of others introduced to the situation! Crazy is crazy and in order to douse the crazy... a smart person leaves the situation to a more tolerant and well-educated environment where crazy is not even in the equation!
A person who grows up angry masks the emotions on many different levels and it lies dormant. It is unleashed at the slightest amount of discomfort because it somehow becomes personal and the person reacts out of defense. The verbal outburst, road rage and the slurring of profanities take on an ugly NO ONE should have to deal with. The world at large is cruel and unfair but for the person closest to the angered it is unfair and unjust. To subject another to that type of outrage is selfish expecting the other to feel the same sentiments.
As a woman who has been so brutally emotionally hurt I understand the anger. Anger takes this form of a defense mechanism so no one else can hurt that deep again. Anger builds walls to keep people out! Its self-protected walls project and when anger is used to harm another it becomes something entirely different. That type of anger is intended to fight back and defend. All logical emotion shuts down and there are no rational decisions being made. It now has become combatant... A built-in defense mechanism. Stand and fight... or flee and run! it is a typical PTSD "Fight or Flight"
In a world where NOW everyone typically is carrying a gun, it is only rational to assume the other also has a gun and very well may use to protect themselves if they too feel they are in threat. The racial divide has only made matters worse... one race feels in order to be heard or to make any kind of presence known it has to be met with violence. We see it all the time! Victims met untimely deaths caught between someone else's fight! Or the higher rate of one trying to protect themselves against the other... caught in crossfires!
As a woman who is against violence in any matter, why would I want any form of it in my life?! I avoid at all cost. My little delusion world is just fine here in my corner of safety! Rocking the boat in any situation never works in a situation that can become explosive! I have seen the devasting effects of domestic violence. I have seen the hatred and anger in many towards people who should not even be in the equation!!!
There is no getting around that we live in a multi-diverse melting pot! Most!! can no longer move far enough away to avoid the casualties of diversity... Making fun of someone for their lack of education and or the way a person speaks does not denote strength in character but a lack of... I will have no part of that! There is absolutely no reason to confront a situation making it confrontational because you don't like something or you have no patience for it and it is not moving in the smooth manner in which you think it should happen!
If it cost me my peace! I am broke... spent too much putting an effort into something that will potentially take away my calm! When you have been through hell and emotionally destroyed, you never ever allow that kind of disruption to occur in your life again!
There is absolutely NO amount of money, help or intended love to build a relationship that will ultimately, in the end, destroy the relationship! and cripple the person who has painstakingly rebuilt her life!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
Life and Biz Coach
In a world gone absolutely mad, I am aware of all the dangers and gun-toting idiots that are out there and If I say I am afraid then I know afraid and I know exactly what fear looks like. Staring down the barrel of a gun or having a weapon brandished in your face NO ONE on this earth should have to encounter! In my last position that I worked for... one of my own customers drunk and stupid pulled a gun out yielding and yelling and pointing in my direction. I have seen stupid and foolish and where anger lives anything can happen and I refuse to be in any situation that has the possibilities of an explosive outcome. If it cost me my peace! The door is closed and my emotional account empty!
If anger lives in an environment then it is time to completely change the environment! If there is an intolerance of behavior than it is time to change the situation to a more conducive way of life! There is no amount of money on this earth that a well educated common sense individual would want to put up with. NONE! What you allow continues and not only are you putting yourself in harm's way but you endangering the well being and well fair of others introduced to the situation! Crazy is crazy and in order to douse the crazy... a smart person leaves the situation to a more tolerant and well-educated environment where crazy is not even in the equation!
A person who grows up angry masks the emotions on many different levels and it lies dormant. It is unleashed at the slightest amount of discomfort because it somehow becomes personal and the person reacts out of defense. The verbal outburst, road rage and the slurring of profanities take on an ugly NO ONE should have to deal with. The world at large is cruel and unfair but for the person closest to the angered it is unfair and unjust. To subject another to that type of outrage is selfish expecting the other to feel the same sentiments.
As a woman who has been so brutally emotionally hurt I understand the anger. Anger takes this form of a defense mechanism so no one else can hurt that deep again. Anger builds walls to keep people out! Its self-protected walls project and when anger is used to harm another it becomes something entirely different. That type of anger is intended to fight back and defend. All logical emotion shuts down and there are no rational decisions being made. It now has become combatant... A built-in defense mechanism. Stand and fight... or flee and run! it is a typical PTSD "Fight or Flight"
In a world where NOW everyone typically is carrying a gun, it is only rational to assume the other also has a gun and very well may use to protect themselves if they too feel they are in threat. The racial divide has only made matters worse... one race feels in order to be heard or to make any kind of presence known it has to be met with violence. We see it all the time! Victims met untimely deaths caught between someone else's fight! Or the higher rate of one trying to protect themselves against the other... caught in crossfires!
As a woman who is against violence in any matter, why would I want any form of it in my life?! I avoid at all cost. My little delusion world is just fine here in my corner of safety! Rocking the boat in any situation never works in a situation that can become explosive! I have seen the devasting effects of domestic violence. I have seen the hatred and anger in many towards people who should not even be in the equation!!!
There is no getting around that we live in a multi-diverse melting pot! Most!! can no longer move far enough away to avoid the casualties of diversity... Making fun of someone for their lack of education and or the way a person speaks does not denote strength in character but a lack of... I will have no part of that! There is absolutely no reason to confront a situation making it confrontational because you don't like something or you have no patience for it and it is not moving in the smooth manner in which you think it should happen!
If it cost me my peace! I am broke... spent too much putting an effort into something that will potentially take away my calm! When you have been through hell and emotionally destroyed, you never ever allow that kind of disruption to occur in your life again!
There is absolutely NO amount of money, help or intended love to build a relationship that will ultimately, in the end, destroy the relationship! and cripple the person who has painstakingly rebuilt her life!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
Life and Biz Coach
