Trailers For Sale Or Rent


***When He Had Her***

It didn't seem real, none of it. An apparition of time. How could time pass by like this? After everything, why would he still make contact? What would he have to say now? Life had moved on... slowly at a snails pace. Heart breaking painful at a god awful snail's pace.

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Trailers for sale or rent... Everywhere they went.  Roads and trips between them... people still gasped. Disturbed... it was all disturbing. They no longer referred to that woman by any kind of  name... they now grimaced and gagged. Nothing made sense to anyone other than the fact... sloppy seconds and low self-worth entered into a place that never should have happened. It was embarrassing. He had embarrassed himself and made complete fools, humiliating everyone in the process.

Not ever recognizing his own self-worth and what he represented as a man. Never realizing all the ground breaking potential that had been laid... because he could not be happy. He never would allow himself to have...

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Jumping at the chance, seeking out the first person after him disappearing on her... that wanted what was to be had.... the deal, the offer...someone who would cling to every bit of his existence. Someone who would willingly conform... It didn't matter what she looked like...or what her character was like. All that mattered to him was that she would give up whatever it was she had... to be with him and knowing no one else would want her. All the attention would be on him... not her.  His shattered ego that was damaged from who knows how far back. The problem being he should have listened to the voices that said ... Before he would let her manipulate her way in.   He had been warned about her. She was manipulating, blindsiding who ever  ... people talked. People saw... but he was desperate to have a person, any person in his house, Needing to prove to himself that someone else would want him.  He settled bringing himself to a level that had no measure of a sinkable depth.

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Their child would have been about kindergarten age... the baby she lost. The baby she mourned. The baby that would bring them all together. The love child that would have brought meaning into all of their lives.

The day she begged him to take her to the hospital  ... but he could not be pulled away from the job, he couldn't stop what he was doing... or possibly because he had himself but for the second time, the one before this one... another woman in his house! How would he explain that? Yes how... The bigger question...why?

She cried and cried heart breaking sobbed but who was there to listen...  He had already a foot over the fence... in and out, for yet a second time.  She could not think, not being able to comprehend any of it... it was a loss all the way around. She was losing herself in the process... while trying to remain in tact.

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Yes, life went on... it was barely mentioned. He came back but as usual... it was never talked about. Swept under a rug like everything else... out of sight out of mind... it didn't matter. What did matter? Who knew ... what? Apparently nothing mattered to him. What mattered was what was serving him ... but in her mind and heart and her existence life with him mattered but he never could recognized what they had.  

Back and forth and back and forth... foot over the fence. Foot in her house... foot is his house... His feet in where they didn't belong. It's all she ever wanted was... him for who he was...there was nothing to prove! There was nothing she needed ... because it was what she wanted, him ... to come home where he belonged when he was supposed to, to have what they had already built and have that family ... all of their family with her. That place where they would all gather... that place where he would respect the love, the family and the meaning of what happily ever after really looked like! There were roads that they already had traveled and no matter where now he would travel his mind was always going to render back to her... But it was not enough... ever for him. Blindly, stubbornly never seeing the ground they had already broke.

Yes, trailers for sale or rent!  Where could he search next? Another notch, another road... another option. Cheap tricks and boozed up trollops... The unattractive sights. Leave it to him to find the only... 

It was disturbing. People, his friends, business associates they all talked and talked and talked...grimaced and gagged

It was absolutely insane... time had moved on slowly at a snail's pace but yet a foot still dangled over a fence. What was left to say? He had every option in the world and he was saying nothing... his actions said it all! If he was not happy it was no one's fault but his own.

All roads lead home... except for when your, king of the road.  Trailers for sale or rent...

Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie

"If a man can't be happy then he might as well work and make money."









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