Within The Walls
So I have upgraded my morning attire from my leopard sweater to my muppet jacket. I've ditched my flip flops and have dug deep into the back of the closet for some old worn fuzzy slippers... the jammie pants fluctuate between some soft velour abstract pattern or a llama print. No, I am still not a vision of pretty in these mornings of lately. I'm still going for that, let me just find some sort of comfort, as I muddle through my day.
Oh now do not get me wrong, although my morning looks a little disheveled, I am still being productive and I do have orders that I am getting out but according to my calculation I need to have 15 sales a week @ $30.00 per pc of merchandise to stay ahead of this game. I have been averaging 4 pcs per week which is pennies to the dollars that I am adding to a bank account that has not seen a paycheck in weeks. (Thanks Co Exec for your democrat plan-demic BS)
I have always strived for that multiple stream income. It has worked {mostly} and until this tyrant has his position reigned in on I am having to alter the way I survive. When government attacks free enterprise but yet leaves all corporate box stores and casinos open; this has NOTHING TO DO WITH A VIRUS and it is a direct hostile attack against a group of small businesses. Now this trickle-down effect has interfered with other outside trades due to the fear that is still being instilled in a group of those who can not think for themselves and want to still believe this virus of a boogie man is out there just waiting to get them. {Did you need government before to tell you... you might get sick?}
To the critic who is right now saying, "well my daughter the nurse, her sister the hospital therapist or the jo schmoe who knows someone... has said, blah blah blah!" Let me say this right off the bat, " any illness will attack and affect an individual or the elderly differently who has a compromised immune system. According to the lung specialist that I have been following, this virus affects the elderly or others with chronic COPD, other lung cancers, pulmonary and heart disease, diabetes, and obesity. If you take a closer look at the lung it has receptors; it takes in what we breathe and when the ace 2 receptor is weakened it is vulnerable for this virus to attack. It then duplicates releasing a signal to the Al6 which signals for enzymes to be released from the liver that expels other components that attack other organs. This is where the misconception begins... it is not the .06 spewed droplet that is been speculated and has been told, you might contract if you come too close to another! I just shake my head at the nonsense that the general public has fallen for and how they have chosen to live in fear and stop with life because they are allowing a party to put the power of suggestion into their mind. Sadly people get sick and often as with other illnesses and or diseases people die.
Before I go onto my next paragraph this is what I have found in the similarities of those that are working too close in the medical field or too close to the virus situation in itself. This is all they are focused on. Their narrow-mindedness tunnel vision is not allowing them to see anything other than what they are dealing with or what guideline they have to work under by CDC's recommendations. This set of conditions DOES NOT APPLY TO EVERYONE. Therefore not everyone should be expected to live a life walking on eggshells because a hospital worker is overworked because a hospital is understaffed. Their 12 hour + shifts are what they have signed on for when they took their Hippocratic oath. Medicine is not pretty and sadly it is a demanding job that outlines what goes with the job's duties. This is not to take away from their studies or their dedication but to reiterate it; this is what they signed on for.
My focus all together different and although I have a preexisting condition I know what I need to do to take care of myself to keep my immune system at optimal performance. I do not need some political forces, a media or some bought and paid health dept to tell me I could get sick... yeah, well, most likely I will not! {My odds are probably better at winning the lottery!}
Within the walls of my working studio, my tunnel vision has been on providing for myself and kicking out the orders the way they are being asked to produce. The narrow-mindedness of my solo operation is due to what I need to do to keep my clarity and sanity with no one under my feet. My 12 hour days of production have been putting together creative endeavors. Piece by piece KM Designs merchandise is being stocked for cash and carry operations and or online orders. I have no other time for anything else in my world right now. My focus is on reorganizing this business, getting my studio in functioning order, cleaning out supplies, utilizing the stash I have, putting together some fun and trendy conversation pieces and making a few dollars to keep my head at some level of management.
I can not worry about what has been going on in anyone else's life. I don't need to keep saying the same thing over and over again. I am not a bump on a log person. I am a vibrant person with some very hefty goals that I am trying to obtain. I do not want to grow old, look back and say I could have, should have done more to further my dreams. This is a time when everyone should be examining their own motives and taking care of their own causes!!!! It is not my nor your responsibility to create the life someone else desires. Staying true to your own personal hobby and finding constructional things to do so your life can stay in a working order to satisfy a personal goal. Setting boundaries and pushing whomever away just happens often from out of nowhere. It's a matter of something gets triggered and the awake button goes off and alarmingly sounds THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT and this is not what I signed on for! (And that is ok.) More people need to do what they need to do to get back to some sort of a regular standard that they can be personally proud of and truly happy. This struggle has been real for years and I mean years. When something is not right a person can go with the flow for so long until it all disintegrates right before your eyes. In the long run, people belong where they need to belong and how they are supposed to be making a living depends on the determination, gifts, and talents they have strived years to perfect.
All the years I studied life coaching... this is such a common, "people will put up with more things just so they do not have to end up alone. They will go without the most intricate parts of what makes up a relationship making concessions and excuses as to why this should be ok when it is not. Settling and compromise are two very different things. No one deserves consolation prizes and or should have to go without what really makes up the most intimate parts of a relationship. People's ideas change and time makes all the difference... no matter how hard a person tries and does the ridiculous back and forth hoping something is going to change. When in the end, it is always the same result"
Here I sit, drinking coffee, waiting on groceries to be delivered while in my llama jammie pants and muppet jacket. I have 4 orders to go out and a painting project I need to put the finishing touches on. I am at a peace that I have not felt in years. My health depends always on where my mind is at. When my mind is at peace, I AM HEALTHY and I am able to do all the things that continue to make me be vibrant, happy, productive and alive!
In my final closing, I will add, a bill was introduced to legislation this week to lift restrictions in my area and to take away the power of my county executive. On Dec 9th he has been asked by the courts to go before a judge and defend his reasoning for abusing his power of authority. All I can say is "Hell hath no fury!" You can not tell a person they can not make money or go to work! Nowhere in the constitution does it say during a pandemic life must stop.
Therefore; mine will not! Has not! Nor ever will!
Be Happy Be Blessed!
Kitryn Marie
