"Do you have a job? Do you have a purpose? Who dresses you?"
It's beginning to look a lot like... what the hell kind of end of year BS is this? (in my full sarcasm)How did you think the year was going to end; in one big pretty package with some shiny glittery bow all wrapped up in some sappy ending rom-com movie? 2020 has been ridiculously tough on every level imaginable! It has been anything but a feel-good movie. The price of admission for this year's full feature has been not worth the price of admission or the seat you were forced to sit; with no refunds insight for all the drama and schematics, you have been witness to!
"Do you have a job? Do you have a purpose? Who dresses you?" I have found myself repeating this line out of one of my most favorite movies more than once this year. While the zombie apocalypse has taken over the general public's independent way of thinking the other half has walked around scrambling for some sort of resemblance of who they are and what they do for a living. The rituals that have taken place to find something that looks normal has been anything but normal. If we could have maybe figured out how to breathe out of our eyelids possibly it would have helped!
The last class I taught was early Feb of this year. Yes, last Feb!!!! The last coaching call made to me was mid-March! The last full week of a decent pay was April... and from there it has spiraled into a madness I even have a hard time writing about. Although I am known as Ms. Frugal, living minimally in some eclectic setting, stylish of my own accord, I have taken on some behaviors that at times I have forgotten who I am and why I do (work) the way I do. The challenges over telling "the others" well when I am not doing this, I do this... but sadly it's not working and due to the current circumstances neither am I! Then I get the puppy head tilt because unless you work the casino, retail, education, health facility or in a corporate office, no one understands and they do not care because it does not compute within their own bandwidth. So here I have been scrambling to make some sense of reality vs the life I have been forced to encounter. Going through the motions for the sake of... well maybe? IDK? What the hell do I do now? This is not what I want and this is just not right politically, healthwise, financially, emotionally, or spiritually... and here I am; I'm left there standing with some dumbfounded look on my face.
I have gone back over all of my coaching notes. I have checked in with all of my mentors. I have emailed and reached out to every county council member that represents my area; as to calling out the tyranny of my local ass-clown county executive over all of the mandates and shutdowns. I have even very bravely addressed in a tactful truthful approach to the news media in a one on one interview along with others that were interviewed over the need to keep a 31-year eating establishment open. Their interview was aired; mine was not! The biased news, mainstream media, would not hear my plea nor would they state my case on air... it interfered with their socialism cause; their message just take the handouts so many have been forced to do! Yes, it was a human interest story. A very worthy cause to greatly help many but to blatantly be shut out of reporting the truth is a disgrace to the news industry causing my further mistrust to what is being spewed on-air nightly.
In the 30+ years I have lent a helping hand (here and there) in the restaurant industry, working in every area and aspect to what is needed to run and operate an eating establishment, my words were not recognized because I had a political view behind why we should be working, the establishment should be open and why I should be allowed to earn an income. I knew at the moment I was given the ok to say what needed to be said, the odds of it being put on air would not be given the green light by studio executives... it did not correlate to their Christmas story of charitable giving!
Yes, 2020 has not been a feel good movie although this year there were quite a few episodes of diversion and inclusion to allow me to forget what I have been trying to forget for years... sometimes those things we try the hardest to forget are the first things that come rushing forward when you are going through some sort of motion that does not have any valid points of realism to them, to begin with. It leaves you with this sense of how do I make sense of any of this?
As I reached out to one of the coaches that I studied under (followed) I saw she had reposted one of her online coaching classes. From the get-go, I had always called her a carnival barker! Look at me, look at what I have! Look at what I teach and look at what I wear! Look, How I live!!!! And Yes I can teach you too HOW TO HAVE ALL OF THIS F-A-B-U-L-O-U-S LIFE! Now grant it while I was learning from her, I (was)am smart enough to know, all of those fabulous things she has is because many women drained their savings and are paying for her to have all of those things! Her team that she has built and is paying hefty comes from those women who bought into her barking... The excessiveness of her teachings has taught me a lifetime of tricks while it did not drain my bank account it afforded me lessons on how I am supposed to work and where I am supposed to lend my hand to! So for someone to tell me, I can not work nor can I have a purpose with a passion, infuriates me.
When I chose to teach not only my painting classes or other art classes, I chose to teach-coach the way I learned how to find my passion. I love speaking about how purpose with a passion guided by faith, inspiration and the ability to have a vision to conceive (brian storm) an idea, is what gives us this mission to do what we are called to do to make an income. Having a multi-stream of income is always meant to offset the things that we can not do for a limited time... it is not meant for a long time duration like all of the things that have been imposed on us. It's not fair. It's not right and it is tyrannical. The public has been made so afraid to live they are believing the madness that is just not all true and while this is occurring people like myself are scrambling to survive!
That coach that I studied under, right now her 6-week class is listed for $2939.00 per person {go ahead do the math}Now when I studied under her that cost was nowhere near that! For that price, she is hoping dozens of women sign up (no refunds) and knowingly, know most will not finish the course! So where am I going with this?
It brings me back to "Do you have a job? Do you have a purpose? Who dresses You?" Do you have this idea and you do not know how to put it into writing? Do you have a product that needs some photo enhancements and you have no clue how to take the picture? Are you using social media the way it was intended? Do you have a few pennies on the dollar to invest in a one on one/ take as you need coaching class with me? Do you want to start a blog? Do you want to learn vlogging? Let me help to get you started!!!! Please click on the link to get you started so you can sign up https://dabble.co/rc/kitryn-marie47
Even if I have to start from scratch and bit by bit rebuild what I started, I will do it... yes this year has been no rom-com feel-good movie! It has though allowed me to see where I want to be and take all the tools I have learned to get me to that life I have always wanted!
Yes, I have a job! Yes, I have a purpose! And yes, I dress myself! Us girls so into ourselves... and our business!
Be Happy Be Blessed!
Kitryn Marie
