I've Said A Few Goodbyes~It's In My Control

 " I've never been pinned as a heartbreaker, but I've said a few goodbyes." I'm here! Bye~ another fine week in dining and the general public combined with a paycheck this time around, give or take 17 cents, is down about 700.00. (AND THIS IS WORKING 6 DAYS) If Mother's Day wasn't bad enough, the $2.15 in tips is seeing its better days. Run me back and forth one more time, and I will disappear.

 Apparently, this has been on social media with other restaurant employees across the board. When it comes to dining out or enjoying what used to be a pleasurable experience, the general public displays pent-up frustrations and or anger and seemingly takes it out on anyone at the wrong place at the wrong time. So, excuse me if I get this look on my face that clearly shows you need to turn your TV off. The best one I heard this week, a woman who is blaming the president because her graduating son chose a degree that is already tough to get into, and odds are, he will not be able to land a job in his field. The kid hasn't graduated yet, and she is projecting his malaise and blaming it on the president. It is a liberal disease. Yes, I said what I said. 

On the other hand, it has been exclaimed that no one likes what's going on in other countries. Excuse me, I am concerned, in the present moment, in this space, city, and state, and how my personal income is looking. Keeping my attitude in a pleasant state, dealing with everyone who is glued to their TV. Shut it down, turn it off... go for a walk! Maybe ask Jesus to come in and sit down with you over a cup of coffee. Let him sort out what's OUT OF YOUR CONTROL.  I can only be concerned with what is in front of me. I only have control of my face and how it appears outward to those who have gone off the edge. I wish the president well. Let him do his job~ This country is a business. And those that have such great opinions on how bad things are or how bad of a job he is doing, let me remind you, you are not qualified to run it. I laugh with great sarcasm, Rome wasn't built in a day, and this instant gratification that everyone is looking for, it is not going to happen overnight! LET THE MAN DO HIS JOB!

Maybe the highlight of the week is that a company in Des Pere reached out to me to teach some classes. It's the beginning of back-and-forth correspondence. My creative side stretches beyond all barriers, and others have to be truly open-minded to be taught to look at views from another side. Perception and perspective say very much about a person and their thought process. I just want to teach. I want my experience and my knowledge to be utilized in a capacity that benefits others. I want my education, talent, and training to be expanded to areas that help others find their creative side.  I just want to teach art and the communication connections that enrich people's lives. Let me reiterate! I JUST WANT TO TEACH!

On my list of trying to figure out things because everything is figure-outable!  Next to tackle is the AC in this house. We resorted to a window unit in the living room and one in the kids' room. It is not enough. This is what started the fiasco a year ago, the air went down, car went down and my princess pony went down. On top of the fact, the 3 jobs I was working, at that time, around the clock, weren't yielding enough to do anything. Almost a year later, working around the clock and putting feelers out for secondary and third type opportunities, it is the recurrence of 2009. I barely lived through that nightmare. I remind myself. I am working. I have employment. This is in my control. When I'm asked, at work, "How are you?" My reply is always the same. "Living the dream, and I keep showing up because I am on the schedule." God love my manager, she tolerates my humor and the warm body presence I have on the floor. Especially on the days when there is no one!

On the brighter side of what can I squeeze in on my day off, pink spray paint is on the list. Once I know for sure we have several days of sunshine, the patio chairs and the galvanized pool are going to be given a new look, a fresh look~ a dream barbie summer vacay look. It is in my control! 

In the yard, the kid and I have maneuvered pavers, and I have scoped out the area for a garden. A few tomato plants and pepper plants. Oh, and corn!!! I have possibly 15 planters to fill with I am thinking coleous and some pink flowering something or another. Its in my control!

The list also consists of washing the front of the house and painting the front door and shutters a new color. A pop of something to offer a fresh take on the shoebox I live in. Knowing me, I will also start to paint the living room a wall at a time, and there are still finishing touches I need to put in the kitchen. Thanks to Frances and her nails. The smallest dog in the bunch, and she does the most damage. (said with love)

The grass does not grow under my feet, which reminds me, there is a lawnmower that needs repair too! Anyway, I do not sit still and when I do its because I have dropped. My svelty body has said, "you're done and I will make sure you don't do anymore." Angrily I listen!

It is what is in my control. It is what I am able to do with what I am able to work with in this space, in this lot I call my life! "I've never been pinned as a heartbreaker, but I've said a few goodbyes."~ Bye

Fate Turns on A Dime

Kitryn Marie

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