What Dignity Will Remain?
If 2020 had a look, it would be a discombobulated version of homelessness, animal print, and some refuge tye-die out of the bottom drawer that you grabbed looking for comfort! My fashion sense has no sense at all right now and to be frank neither does my outlook on what is occurring in my life, my job, my mind or what is happening in my area. I know broke. I know the term going for broke and... I'm also very familiar with it just may break you!
This morning I filed for unemployment. My few days a week gig has come to an end until further notice. By my local government's overreach /oversight, I am no longer essential and apparently a threat to now the boogie man. Yes, I still have my small and I mean very small art and coaching business but it is yielding 0 dollars because of the god awful fear that the biased media has repeatedly lied about to keep people in this holding pattern of panic; keeping them afraid to live! I am now being told that $100.00 a week before taxes is going to support my household that needs 1700.00 to function! I am now being told that people over profits is supposed to be the new way of existing. It is being crammed down my throat that Free Enterprise died somewhere in the covid ranks and I am just supposed to lose what I have worked very very hard for because I have to suffer the consequences over the people that had either a pre-existing condition or truly refused to take care of themselves, to begin with and now are mandating ridiculous selfish rule while afraid to leave their house as they can hide and work for their corporation still receiving a steady paycheck as I fight and cling to my belongings and very loud political opinion! We are all not in the same boat and we never were!
This week alone I have said at least a million times, "you do not quarantine the healthy working class that economically supports and contributes to their community." The restaurant industry makes up for at the least 10% of the overall commerce in your area! In my area that is over 300,000 jobs! Where once deemed an essential and needed part of the community; the restaurant worker and owner has been kicked to the curb with a huge scarlet letter on their doorsteps! The economic collapse will be devastating and from my math and survival skills... a 100.00 a week does not go very far in anyone's life!
Pathetically I have gone down this road before {2009} only when the last time around I was allotted 350.00 a week survival which seemed doable. I can only hope that by the time Jan rolls around that a few of the county council members will be banished from ever holding office again and allow what's left of our dignity, health, and finances to pick up in some matter of order. I can not stand a thief, a liar and an extortionist!
My life has always been an open book and I have shared the most crucial parts of how I have lived and how I have picked up and gone on after the devastating ending of a relationship and a diagnosis of my health. I have always worked. I have always have had some sense of what a dollar is worth and how to stretch it to suit my family's needs. We all fall down. We all get up and often more than ever we need help. Tenacity; through my great stubbornness and determination to make something of myself, I have been known to shut doors on people who want to keep me locked in old patterns, outdated living modes that just will not work for me! It is one thing to be offered assistance to get you through a slump but it is another when the person on the receiving side is being patronized and kept in a holding pattern to suit the giver's co-dependent patterns. I'll go to my grave saying, "I do not want to be taken care of or to be a kept woman." It is not going to happen. "It may make you feel good but it makes me feel worthless!"
I have been afforded a nice life over the last 5 years and it has come with many many obstacles but this time around in regards to my contributions with being told my value and input is no longer needed (by a political figure) it has diminished my value as an independent thinker, who has desperately tried true and fair to stand on her own feet.
Where do I go from here? I do not know... as more things clearly are not making sense in regards to what is healthy to do and what is not it has become a ludicrous rule while being gaslighted by my local political figurehead that is about to get the pants sued off him for keeping any industry locked out with no data to back up his conflicting positions! He will not even address the people who are being lied to and played by this tyrannical power play.
Sure, I can continue to work on my craft. I am still able to do production from my shoebox operation. My voice is still intact but stress has intervened with breath and knowing my own immune system I have to be extremely careful not to allow it to make me sick on another level. Keeping idle hands busy in a more quieter environment really never felt more good. Comfort, I have wanted nothing more than the comfort of right now! Peace of mind on what I can put together, produce, sell, gain more trust and seemingly seek out the endless customers that I will need to purchase what I have come up with to make a living supporting that 1700 a month living expense!
I will close this writing out by saying, "Grown adults should know their own immune health." Use your voice to fight against any rule that does not apply to your personal life or goes against your grain/gut. If it does not sit well within your soul something is extremely wrong. Pay attention to your intuition and be very vigilant to what you think is being sold to you as a bill of lies.
In the next few weeks, please look for my video productions In The "Kit"chen on You-tube, Insatgram and Facebook. You will be able to find me under Kitryn Marie and KM Designs A Writers Mind.
I have partnered with Watkins 1868 and looking forward to collaborating product, meal prep and spices you may purchase @ watkins1868.com/consultant/1349780 Also I will be adding my new line of kitchenware and apparel/accessories on my web page in the coming weeks. http://kitryn-marie.weebly.com I have also purchased my own line of nail wraps.
As always you may send me a direct message at kitrynmarie@gmail.com I am still available for business coaching online or in person. Teaching creative-minded women how to create their niche and find their voice! So they too can create the life they want through their gifts and talents!
Be Happy Be Blessed!
Kitryn Marie
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