Let Me Change This Post Up

Let Me Change this post up for the sake of God forsaken change!

I can not remember a time when my grandma was not in the kitchen. Since becoming an adult I can not remember a time me not being in the kitchen! As much as I love to paint and teach, I love to cook more! I was meant to be in front of a group of people force-feeding them and showing off my culinary skills! I am comfortable being in front of a camera and I am confident with my speaking style! Some things in all our abilities are innate and a handful is just good at what we are born with!

When I went looking for a food company to partner with, (The Gourmet Cupboard) it had to be a company that I could incorporate my spin on with their meal prep spices etc... that I could use with my recipes. I typically cook very Italian. I may though twist a good ole American traditional meal and turn it into my own! I kinda do that with everything I touch. I put my spin on all of my creative efforts so that I can make it my own. Why wouldn't I?

Do you understand the term and the definition of PERSONALITY? The combination of characteristics or qualities that form a person's distinctive character. These qualities often stand out and often are misconstrued by those that are hell-bent on misunderstanding the traits. Now there are a more than a plenty of TV personalities and entertainers that have formed quite the EGO over their fortunate stance or lot in life but until Kevin Costner shows up at my front door asking me to do a cooking demo with him, I promise you my ego is very much in check! ( I wonder what he likes to eat? LOL) What you see is really just who I am! A sincere authentic, wing it as I go, love to entertain as I speak in some goofy heartwarming storytelling banter while I cook or do some project! I have a million stories about my family and the traditions imposed on us as we grew up!

In that tiny kitchen on Bates, it was nothing to have 9 women in there all with a position and a responsibility towards cooking for the family meal to be had. If I could explain what 9 Italian women sounded like speaking at one time... play a 78-speed record backward and then throw in a laugh track! Half the time it was in Italian and the other have would be spoken in English. The dialect went back and forth never missing a beat on which language they would insert.

As a child, you had a role also... stay out of their way and go find something to do till they called you usually right before dinner when they wanted any of us kids to help set the table!

My gram was the QUEEN of entertaining! She loved when her family sat around the table! We never ran out of food! There was always room for one more! No one was ever turned away! She was also the last one to sit down. She plated everyone's food! Just as the first bite was to be taken, there was always someone yelling, "Cmon Dot, ( which they called her for short. Her name was Dorothy) sit down!" That first bite was more than decadent. The savor and spice did not disappoint! My grandma's etiquette was impeccable! Everything on that dining table strategically placed just perfect! I think back on it all! It was so important for her to teach me these remarkable skills... right down to her same personality! Although I do not claim St. hood! My grandma was a SAINT!

To take in two girls, her grandchildren to raise as her own, in a tumultuous time and selflessly give up her life for us, will always be reason enough for her induction into the Saintly order. Raising us there was never a reason for disrespect of any kind. The woman gave what she had and did the best she could with what was in her power. Everything was to be shared and appreciated down the last dime she gave us!

Most of our growing up life,(my sister and myself) we had a small closet til later as teens. We had 2 school uniforms, a pair of school shoes, a pair of tennis shoes and in the summer sandals. Typically one pair of "good" shoes. We each had a drawer; underwear, socks, few shirts, shorts. A few dresses hung in the tiny closet and school uniforms and maybe a pair of slacks. What else would we have ever needed? We had a suitcase full of Barbie Dolls and clothes for them under our bed that we pulled out. We had a record player and a few albums we played over and over and over. We sang and danced and I always MC'd my sister's performances. The back steps on our back porch became our stage. We performed and were allowed imaginations that soared. We could be anyone we chose and there was no limit to our capabilities!

Only later in life when I decided I wanted to take singing lessons and be a stage performer it just felt like the thing to do. It was a comfortable choice... although not a confident choice. My dad always seemed to throw a monkey wrench into that dream. I did though pursue on... until my anxiety got the best of me. It would seem a lot of that dream went on hold for years... too many years now that I look back.

Can you imagine having a personality and being made to be quiet? To stifle an innate gift? To stuff talent way down inside, hiding it from everyone so no one could criticize or hurt or say harsh cruel words. Some people make it their mission in life to misunderstand what they cannot comprehend because it does not fit into their box of BLAH!!! Because it is so different from the life they have lived or the environment they grew up in? Just does not seem fair, does it? or nice?

It is such a crux of having an anxiety disorder but yet wanting to be in the public eye! PTSD is crippling and debilitating, it makes a strong-willed person want to hide and I have fought this demon most of my life. By nature an introvert only because I love the quiet and the calm but when it comes to my dream, the extrovert that has been hiding now comes out in full force... to shed light on quite a few creative endeavors!

I love having the platform on YOUTUBE and all the other social media channels for the freedom of what I will call enlightening and entertaining. Sharing knowledge and passion! I love to have partnered with The Gourmet Cupboard and the like also of AVON. I love being able to dress up in either a name brand something or another or even one of my own T's from my line! I love being able to mentor and coach other women who just want more for their life, who have had dreams but for whatever reason they too have had to stifle and hide what their heart desired.

All this "show" stuff makes me happy! I am able to freely express my PERSONALITY! I am trying to lead and speak by example doing exactly what my gram taught me... the ability to teach and share what I know and how to do what I know best! Talk and Feed!

If you would like to learn more about how you to can take your dreams and make them manifest into the life you have always wanted, please sign up for one of my coaching sessions/mentoring sessions! online or in person visit http://kitryn-marie.weebly.com

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I have a variety of art classes that I am teaching right now. I have open enrollment please visit http://kmgraphicapparelandart.weebly.com or go over to Dabble St. Louis or Event Brite St. Louis and look up my name Kitryn Marie

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Its been quite the journey over the last 10 years. Family and mouths to feed have always been my heart mission! Whatever I have had to share...whether it be small or big, I have shared. I have only asked in return; respect and the understanding of who I am and where I came from and the larger than life PERSONALITIES I learned from!

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Kitryn Marie

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At this time I am looking for a camera crew and a test kitchen