Check Your Motives, I Hear the Circus is Coming
Seriously a July girl with her coffee and alone with her thoughts "SCORE" !!!! Windows are temporarily open, pets in tow, Bruce my boxer outside tearing up some box, (shhh! he is occupied) and now I am at the computer contemplating motives and moves accepting offers. I worked all week in the one gig, working tonight the second gig (which tonight for some reason I was personally requested!) I finished one art project this morning and now am planning for the upcoming weeks ahead. OPPORTUNITIES... OPPORTUNITIES... OPPORTUNITIES!
With Mercury going retrograde here in a few days (yes I believe in the stars, the universe, astrology, numerology and I have a strong Christian faith. There is a God!) I am getting my ducks in a row and I am being prepared for things that may come my way. Life happens! Shit happens and murphy's law always does apply. The re-peats of life seem to show up often and learning to re-wire my thoughts takes some process. Right now though it is a time to completely slow down actions and halt any big moves. Lessons in life are repeated til learned and for those that "choose the same, you get what you got!" It is your circus and yes that is your monkey!
People who parade themselves with a group of known troublemakers who thrive on drama and chaos, thinking they have made new friends and found new connections probably should have read the fine print when signing on to that tour. Where there is a group of people where an activity is involved with adult beverages and a bunch of cackling gossiping mongered women exist... YOU are headed for trouble. Dear lord, get us all ready for the shit show.
Blindside love and foolish behavior seem to always take center stage. While real of anything often stays quiet and reserved never needing an audience and proof to show to the world... LOOK WHAT I GOT! I am reminded of the movie sliding doors. Some weird paradoxical life that paralleled someone else's. HHHmmm!
People, check your motives. Lets now sing, "Looking for love in all the wrong places." What was that guy's name? Theme songs for so many!
What is it about people that need to be in groups? What is it about people who can not learn to be alone in quiet settings with a few quaint close friends. I don't know? My whole life, I was thrust and forced to be amongst the masses and for crazy reasons, I made a living at it. I crave the quiet, the sincere, real kindred spirits. I have had my fill of alcoholics and fake camaraderie. I am such an introvert. It actually hurts me to hear groups of people talking. It does this soul-sucking thing that zaps every bit of who I am.
Even in my most recent situation, I have pushed away and turned a deaf ear on any words being said to me. All I can think is "shut up, I do not want to hear any more words... just let me work and get on with life" I have a plan and I have a mission. There is an order to everything in this life and as we plan you have to be prepared for the halts and stops! WHOA BUDDY WTF! Check your motives!
Last week I was out horseback riding, I am working with a beautiful buckskin quarter horse. He is roughly 16.5/17 hands... Huge! (seeing me climb up and throw my leg over that saddle is comical! I laugh so hard... can only imagine how I look doing it!?) His gait is steady and has quite the giddy up, once I can get him to go. He flips that head around and looks at me like, "yeah right!" My goal with him is to barrel ride. Ya know that fast running trot (racehorses cantor) and keep him in that same steady speed going around the barrel without falling out of sync and me not falling out of the saddle. (coordination on both parts.) It is knowing the right combination and the right moves at the most correct time. A lot like life! Knowing your cue! There is no room for error and no room for stupid decisions. It is all about timing and getting that horse to know me as close as that saddle is on his back! It is something to work with over and over til the moment is perfected! There is no walking away and there is no giving up or throwing in any towel. I'm in it to accomplish it!
(This is the part of life right now I love! Training this horse. I want to do this every day for the rest of my life! and yes there is money in it!!!! This activity is a 1 on 1 activity sometimes a few but never huge groups, it is detrimental to the rider and the horses. It is a mindful sport with lots of activity. A whole lot of strength and determination is needed for this type of fun. No drama no chaos ... )
I find that if a secure solid person can really be picky about his activities and choices in life, it makes for a better-built foundation for any relationship. I personally can not thrive anymore on drama or chaos. Secure surroundings where fake is not needed and alcohol does not need to be present. Circus and monkeys not my thing!
So as we approach mercury retrograde, stop and halt! Check your motives...WHOA BUDDY WTF You just might get thrown... for quite the loop. Blindside love and foolish behavior seem to always take center stage in that group of troublemakers that thrives on drama and chaos. Unless you are into that circus thing! LIFE HAPPENS! Shit happens and murphy's law always does apply! WHEN YOU CHOOSE THE SAME YOU GET WHAT YOU GOT! Re-peat...
Now, where was I? Seriously a July girl and her coffee and alone with her thoughts "SCORE" !!!! Windows are temporarily open, pets in tow, Bruce my boxer outside tearing up some box, (shhh! he is occupied) and now I am at the computer contemplating motives and moves and accepting offers. OPPORTUNITIES... OPPORTUNITIES... OPPORTUNITIES!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
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With Mercury going retrograde here in a few days (yes I believe in the stars, the universe, astrology, numerology and I have a strong Christian faith. There is a God!) I am getting my ducks in a row and I am being prepared for things that may come my way. Life happens! Shit happens and murphy's law always does apply. The re-peats of life seem to show up often and learning to re-wire my thoughts takes some process. Right now though it is a time to completely slow down actions and halt any big moves. Lessons in life are repeated til learned and for those that "choose the same, you get what you got!" It is your circus and yes that is your monkey!
People who parade themselves with a group of known troublemakers who thrive on drama and chaos, thinking they have made new friends and found new connections probably should have read the fine print when signing on to that tour. Where there is a group of people where an activity is involved with adult beverages and a bunch of cackling gossiping mongered women exist... YOU are headed for trouble. Dear lord, get us all ready for the shit show.
Blindside love and foolish behavior seem to always take center stage. While real of anything often stays quiet and reserved never needing an audience and proof to show to the world... LOOK WHAT I GOT! I am reminded of the movie sliding doors. Some weird paradoxical life that paralleled someone else's. HHHmmm!
People, check your motives. Lets now sing, "Looking for love in all the wrong places." What was that guy's name? Theme songs for so many!
What is it about people that need to be in groups? What is it about people who can not learn to be alone in quiet settings with a few quaint close friends. I don't know? My whole life, I was thrust and forced to be amongst the masses and for crazy reasons, I made a living at it. I crave the quiet, the sincere, real kindred spirits. I have had my fill of alcoholics and fake camaraderie. I am such an introvert. It actually hurts me to hear groups of people talking. It does this soul-sucking thing that zaps every bit of who I am.
Even in my most recent situation, I have pushed away and turned a deaf ear on any words being said to me. All I can think is "shut up, I do not want to hear any more words... just let me work and get on with life" I have a plan and I have a mission. There is an order to everything in this life and as we plan you have to be prepared for the halts and stops! WHOA BUDDY WTF! Check your motives!
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Last week I was out horseback riding, I am working with a beautiful buckskin quarter horse. He is roughly 16.5/17 hands... Huge! (seeing me climb up and throw my leg over that saddle is comical! I laugh so hard... can only imagine how I look doing it!?) His gait is steady and has quite the giddy up, once I can get him to go. He flips that head around and looks at me like, "yeah right!" My goal with him is to barrel ride. Ya know that fast running trot (racehorses cantor) and keep him in that same steady speed going around the barrel without falling out of sync and me not falling out of the saddle. (coordination on both parts.) It is knowing the right combination and the right moves at the most correct time. A lot like life! Knowing your cue! There is no room for error and no room for stupid decisions. It is all about timing and getting that horse to know me as close as that saddle is on his back! It is something to work with over and over til the moment is perfected! There is no walking away and there is no giving up or throwing in any towel. I'm in it to accomplish it!
(This is the part of life right now I love! Training this horse. I want to do this every day for the rest of my life! and yes there is money in it!!!! This activity is a 1 on 1 activity sometimes a few but never huge groups, it is detrimental to the rider and the horses. It is a mindful sport with lots of activity. A whole lot of strength and determination is needed for this type of fun. No drama no chaos ... )
I find that if a secure solid person can really be picky about his activities and choices in life, it makes for a better-built foundation for any relationship. I personally can not thrive anymore on drama or chaos. Secure surroundings where fake is not needed and alcohol does not need to be present. Circus and monkeys not my thing!
***************************************
So as we approach mercury retrograde, stop and halt! Check your motives...WHOA BUDDY WTF You just might get thrown... for quite the loop. Blindside love and foolish behavior seem to always take center stage in that group of troublemakers that thrives on drama and chaos. Unless you are into that circus thing! LIFE HAPPENS! Shit happens and murphy's law always does apply! WHEN YOU CHOOSE THE SAME YOU GET WHAT YOU GOT! Re-peat...
Now, where was I? Seriously a July girl and her coffee and alone with her thoughts "SCORE" !!!! Windows are temporarily open, pets in tow, Bruce my boxer outside tearing up some box, (shhh! he is occupied) and now I am at the computer contemplating motives and moves and accepting offers. OPPORTUNITIES... OPPORTUNITIES... OPPORTUNITIES!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
