Claiming That Big Picture
I once was told, "Look At The Big Picture." Oh and I did! I looked long and hard and far and wide... and tried to freeze frame it! Everyone has their version of that Big Picture... and unless it's laid out and spelled out correctly it will get lost in all translations. Not everyone understands the dialog.
I think outside a box... mostly I function far removed from any structure. I see an end result based on a vision. It has never been my thing to plan how I was going to get there. I just have always had this innate way of thinking I was going to get what I wanted in the end. My Big Picture would manifest itself... magically! By will power and the road I would take to do what my talents would allow me to do! All I needed in correlation with this big picture was someone who was going to believe me! Having full fledge knowledge I would do what I set out to do not only for me but for us! All of US! See it wasn't just about me!?
He threw in the towel... "oh ye of little faith!" Giving up and giving in to his own vices and dismay not having any follow through on what he spoke and or wanted... and not realizing his part he played in it all. His dialogue on the Big Picture had no imagination involved. His idea of a picture based on a structure outdated. Basing ideas on years failed and previous relationship attempts... and having no clue that there is more to life that than the 2 streets that you know! Upsetting... heartbreaking!
There was more to our life than money or who was going to buy whose kids shoes... or how much effort needed to be provided to pay for the others house and car etc etc etc... What happened to combined dreams? What happened to that dialog coming to terms with what both needed to feel complete? Bringing to a table what they had combined at that time not ever needing to question what one could do more for the other!!! Not all jobs and or careers are 9-5 with paychecks. For someone who had to chase down his money for jobs completed, he should have understood the language of business and the variety of ways to get to the end of means.
I can't shake it! I can't get it over! I can't get past it! As I have rediscovered myself, traveled road after road after road. Trying to make sense of it all! Teaching classes 10 people, 20 people 50 people...and sold my art works! I have sat here compiling words gathering pictures from my road trips and life's small adventures working on not one book but three! A book NOW that is going to be published. A deal that was offered to me by a publishing house. I was offered a lucrative book deal... and after this book, I have been told they want more!!!! I WILL BE A PUBLISHED AUTHOR!
You can not understand the feeling of accomplishment that goes with this accolade? My imaginative way of life is paying off!!!
See my Big Picture came with a dream come true. A happily ever after that would make Cinderella jealous! My name in print with a rewarding bounty that would take care of more than what was ever expected!!! Enough to go around for everyone. Accolades to share... with a much bigger prize! (Love was a part of it regardless... it was never to be ignored, dismissed or tossed aside because someone gave up!)
When a person has no faith in the other, that is what happens when a person only sees at the end of their nose. When they can't look past what they know, boringly familiar. When you settle for what you always have known and you choose the same... you get what you got! And I wanted MORE! I dreamed of more... My Big Picture was bigger than what he could imagine and my imagination soared!
The end result... that is what the Big Picture always entails. How does it look? What's there? Who is in it? Nowhere in it, is how did they get there?! because they believed in the same BIG PICTURE! TOGETHER, All a person sees is the end result and who is standing there with them.
Well to finish this, my Big Picture, a few months back I started working with horses. Adding but yet one more thing into my imaginative unstructured life! Years back, many years back, I took riding lessons. I always wanted horses... I knew somewhere in my life I would have horses! At this current time, I am working with a rescue ranch in Catawissa, Mo. I am learning to train rescue horses that has been neglected and or in desperate need of human touch. I am learning as much as I can so when I am able and ready I will be able to care for my own head of equine. ( I see my dad beaming. He wanted me so bad to be a race horse jockey. I laugh!!)
Yes, quite the BIG PICTURE, I see myself in the next few years living down that highway 44 stretch on 20 acres with a decent house, a barn with 6 horses, a lake with a live water source and 4 books published. I am even thinking of naming my homestead Candy Cane Lane! I see no reason not to! It is what dreams are made from!
Fairytales, dreams, big pictures... the end results! It's who and what and how it all looks! Everyone needs to understand, "Just because this is what you know, this is not all there is!" Stretch your imagination! Think outside your box! Strive for that vision that lives in your heart and or your soul. There is more to life than the 2 streets you know!
The shoe does fit! And I claim My BIG PICTURE!
It's a bittersweet love story of success and the man that gave up on his queen and her vision!
Onward and Forward... into the next 3 books!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
I think outside a box... mostly I function far removed from any structure. I see an end result based on a vision. It has never been my thing to plan how I was going to get there. I just have always had this innate way of thinking I was going to get what I wanted in the end. My Big Picture would manifest itself... magically! By will power and the road I would take to do what my talents would allow me to do! All I needed in correlation with this big picture was someone who was going to believe me! Having full fledge knowledge I would do what I set out to do not only for me but for us! All of US! See it wasn't just about me!?
He threw in the towel... "oh ye of little faith!" Giving up and giving in to his own vices and dismay not having any follow through on what he spoke and or wanted... and not realizing his part he played in it all. His dialogue on the Big Picture had no imagination involved. His idea of a picture based on a structure outdated. Basing ideas on years failed and previous relationship attempts... and having no clue that there is more to life that than the 2 streets that you know! Upsetting... heartbreaking!
There was more to our life than money or who was going to buy whose kids shoes... or how much effort needed to be provided to pay for the others house and car etc etc etc... What happened to combined dreams? What happened to that dialog coming to terms with what both needed to feel complete? Bringing to a table what they had combined at that time not ever needing to question what one could do more for the other!!! Not all jobs and or careers are 9-5 with paychecks. For someone who had to chase down his money for jobs completed, he should have understood the language of business and the variety of ways to get to the end of means.
I can't shake it! I can't get it over! I can't get past it! As I have rediscovered myself, traveled road after road after road. Trying to make sense of it all! Teaching classes 10 people, 20 people 50 people...and sold my art works! I have sat here compiling words gathering pictures from my road trips and life's small adventures working on not one book but three! A book NOW that is going to be published. A deal that was offered to me by a publishing house. I was offered a lucrative book deal... and after this book, I have been told they want more!!!! I WILL BE A PUBLISHED AUTHOR!
You can not understand the feeling of accomplishment that goes with this accolade? My imaginative way of life is paying off!!!
See my Big Picture came with a dream come true. A happily ever after that would make Cinderella jealous! My name in print with a rewarding bounty that would take care of more than what was ever expected!!! Enough to go around for everyone. Accolades to share... with a much bigger prize! (Love was a part of it regardless... it was never to be ignored, dismissed or tossed aside because someone gave up!)
When a person has no faith in the other, that is what happens when a person only sees at the end of their nose. When they can't look past what they know, boringly familiar. When you settle for what you always have known and you choose the same... you get what you got! And I wanted MORE! I dreamed of more... My Big Picture was bigger than what he could imagine and my imagination soared!
The end result... that is what the Big Picture always entails. How does it look? What's there? Who is in it? Nowhere in it, is how did they get there?! because they believed in the same BIG PICTURE! TOGETHER, All a person sees is the end result and who is standing there with them.
Well to finish this, my Big Picture, a few months back I started working with horses. Adding but yet one more thing into my imaginative unstructured life! Years back, many years back, I took riding lessons. I always wanted horses... I knew somewhere in my life I would have horses! At this current time, I am working with a rescue ranch in Catawissa, Mo. I am learning to train rescue horses that has been neglected and or in desperate need of human touch. I am learning as much as I can so when I am able and ready I will be able to care for my own head of equine. ( I see my dad beaming. He wanted me so bad to be a race horse jockey. I laugh!!)
Yes, quite the BIG PICTURE, I see myself in the next few years living down that highway 44 stretch on 20 acres with a decent house, a barn with 6 horses, a lake with a live water source and 4 books published. I am even thinking of naming my homestead Candy Cane Lane! I see no reason not to! It is what dreams are made from!
Fairytales, dreams, big pictures... the end results! It's who and what and how it all looks! Everyone needs to understand, "Just because this is what you know, this is not all there is!" Stretch your imagination! Think outside your box! Strive for that vision that lives in your heart and or your soul. There is more to life than the 2 streets you know!
The shoe does fit! And I claim My BIG PICTURE!
It's a bittersweet love story of success and the man that gave up on his queen and her vision!
Onward and Forward... into the next 3 books!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
