As The World Spins

 I don't know where to start this morning. Something is wrong, and it is showing up everywhere, in all of our lives: in people's attitudes, business practices, revolving door relationships, on the road in rage, and society at large, which is going through some funk that too many do not want to address. If I could run somewhere far away, now would be the time! It's go time.

Missouri, right now, is experiencing some odd effects through cloud seeding (my personal belief). Where I have mentioned before in a passing joke, that whirlybird that the gov has is the sky, turn it off and do it quickly. The weather has impacted communities and their welfare.  The mood of the general public is far surpassed bipolar and its effects on the subcranial. The conspirist I am, this last round of tornadoes in our area, a land grab, and an on-purpose neglectful act of ignoring a button to send sirens warnings. Although I do not have any access to city development plans or understanding the finances needed to secure holdings to rebuild... It's all fishy to me. Tornadoes do not typically hit big cities, especially where there are high building structures, from what I have come to understand, but a whirlybird in the sky could direct a pattern. Nonetheless, Missouri and its people are being affected.

In my everyday routine, doing that restaurant pivot, people are looking for dining experiences while having conversations that are upsetting in nature. I see the public sitting down indecisively on what they want to eat or drink, wishy washy on appetite, but as soon as they start to look at prices and converse about the everyday goings-on in the world---- Boom bam. Attitude has shifted, and the war within is on~ taking it out on the person in front of them. Also, to mention the state the economy is in has everyone at odds with maintaining life, and a life they once knew to be true is gone. That work 9-6 and retire comfortably is a lie and always has been a myth. Health insurance is a scam and as I listened to a table of 15 ladies who retired from a gov job, for 2 hours they discussed which healthcare plan they needed to switch because deductable would never be met and out-of-pocket would surpass their SS. One woman even said, "I will die before I can meet that deductible." They continued with dental and eye... I had to walk by quickly and turn a deaf ear to the cackle of doom and gloom. I wanted to yell, "Hey ladies, how bout enjoy each other's company. Find joy in this moment!!!!" 

On that same day, I had a customer yell across the patio at me, "Where is our food?" Her counterpart could not comprehend why her sandwich was different from what was on the menu because she altered the way the sandwich was structured, and she asked to change the ingredients/condiments on it. Her complaint, as she is placating my stance, "Why didn't you tell me it was going to be different?" I stood there. My only response, "Ma'am, because you ordered it differently," I walked away. They dared to say the worst food and worst service ever! I almost quit! I am seeing this type of behavior more and more every day!!!!

Tonight marks my 6th shift this week. Friday night, I worked a banquet. A higher dollar event. A great menu choice, shrimp apps, antipasti, chicken skewers, stuffed mushroom~ prime rib, mashed smashed brussel sprouts, salad, and dessert. A great menu choice with an open bar! Another person and I worked the small gathering. Their bill was on the higher side of $3200.00; they opted not to tip. Where tipping is always optional and not specified as a requisite, I was baffled at the lack of courtesy and probably more amazed at their lack of banquet etiquette. Life coaching: "What prompted you to believe this was not necessary?" Was there some glitch in the contract you misinterpreted, or in your personal system, a belief that you felt it was not deserving of the "workers" who made your evening a delightful experience?  Sadly, I read people and I observe every motive and method to their madness, but then again, I trained for this. That one act of negligence said more about that person than anyone would ever need to tell me!

Last night, as I was working at another much more pleasant party, my kid frantically sent me a text. "Mom, someone hit my car. Hit and run. It was parked across the street from our house. He has had the car for maybe 5 months! The hoodlums, kids from the apartment complex at the end of the street, happened to be joyriding in some rental~ a new BMW. All day long, before I left for work, I saw them cruising at speeds Racer X would have competed against. They came through the apt cow gaits, which separate our subdivision from their property. They couldn't get through the street signs the county put up to keep people OUT! and plowed right into the kids' car! He was devastated and I was, AM pissed! Neighbors got the kids on camera because they ran on foot. The police came and took what info they could. They towed the other car away for evidence, and from what I know, they have only apprehended one female.  WTF!!!! This is going to be one long, drawn-out process. Insurance claims, repairs if a repair can be made and then the judicial part of trialing kids! Delinquents! If I have not stated or prefaced before... I want out of this city! It is go time!

Working around the clock and trying to maintain clarity in all situations that are out of my control is taking a toll on how I am applying myself in life. Showing up is just that. I show up where I am expected to be but I am questioning all motives from everyone around me!

I recently cleaned out several dresser drawers, and I came across a birthday card, someone promising me llamas, cows, and horses. The ill-fated lie of future faking. The empty promises over a life that never had any intention of becoming the real escape from this BS existence, everyone tolerates. The unhealthy, toxic routines they have to stay in because it is secured in a suffocation of tomb deaths, but hey, there is a paycheck and health insurance attached!

This morning, I have a photo shoot I am doing for someone. A class I offered a few years back on photography posing. It's one of those classes for someone who is promoting their business and branding who they are to better gain a positive image for social media. I am looking forward to it! Something creative before I have to attach myself back to the restaurant tonight. I am off tomorrow! Thank God!

This week ahead, I may dive back into watching old soap operas. I am longing for that "come rescue me feeling," Where Bo goes through hell or high water to whisk Hope away to some magical place, unidentified lands where adventure lives. Romance and escapades made for Dreamland! Places where energy is contagious, the sites are heart-palpitating, and no one runs from the exhilarating breath, breath-taking moments caught up in kisses, chocolate, and palm trees, all being chased down with champagne! 

The world at large has lost it! Look around and really look! It has affected you in ways you can not even explain and most are going through the motions just becuase~they do not know any better! and it takes to much effort to change it and their behaviors!

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Kitryn Marie