Narcissism, Addiction and The Only Child
If I could sound trumpets to wake y'all up I would! It is Monday morning...been up since 5ish with not a lot of sleep. I have quite a bit of activity going on in my brain right now, and the creative juices are flowing rampart. Before I even get writing let me ask for you to pardon my self-indulgence this morning...but I just checked stats on this blog and let me tell you it is soaring! So who ever is reading I thank you!!!! kindly and I ask that you continue.
Narcissism, Addiction and The Only Child is a hell of a title isn't it? And what does that have to do with me you ask? I am not sure but let's find out shall we?
I don't know if I really fall into any of these behaviors, but I am sure some of my traits might mimic the characterizations. I actually had to look up narcissism because a book I am trying to write one of my characters I thought might fall under this category. As I was reading the definition, "vanity, egotism and pride" I though OMG that could be me...LOL
Me vane? Could that be... Why doesn't everybody put on a full face of make-up when leaving the house to run to the mail box??? Ego??? What ego??? Yes, my works of art are fabulous! and I am a very talented artist...Why my name is Kitryn Marie...have you not heard of me?? Pride? What do I have to be so prideful?? Have you seen my oldest? He is a good looking body builder... What have you not seen my works of art??? They are tremendous pieces of my creative vision!!!!
I don't know is that really narcissism? I just figured it was my personality flaw. I don't walk around saying "oh look at me I am wonderful and you are a better person because of it"!
Addiction...boy that's a double edged sword! I do drink more than a pot of coffee a day. I have to watch my soap opera on more than a usual amount of time during the week. The computer OMHEAVENLY STARS!!! I will die without my computer...I must have my computer............ Why can't some addictions be good for you??
I'm the oldest of me and my sister! So only child I am not buttttttt........... because we are so different, we were raised differently. It is funny how you can grow up in the same house hold by the same set of rules, but they are interrupted different and how we were to abide by them were different. So yes growing up, I did feel like I was an only child. The line that separated me and my younger sister was so hard drawn there was no other way to be than an "only"
After carefully diagnosing all these descriptive entities...you decide? So again pardon my self indulgence...
My name... I go by Kitryn Marie because my ex-husband has been married so many times that there are too many with his last name and his mother is still living! And with no disrespect to her... she is one woman enough to carry that name. My mother named me after two gals she worked with... Kathryn and Katrina. Dad said, "sure we will name her Kitryn but we will call her "KIT" for short, and as she gets older and ask for help we will tell her "Do it yourself Kit"! (God's honest truth!)
I am a southside girl born and raised St. Louis Mo. Grand and Bates area...but there is nothing Southside about me! My head is always in the clouds! I am always looking to explore, writing, TV, art and expression. Like John Bon Jovi says, " I spent 20 years looking to find a new place" although with me those lines and faces I have been trying to erase! I have a foolish heart and I love the wrong kind.
I fell into food and beverage as a career because I was a divorced mom with two kids that I had to take care of. When you are Italian , You have the gift of gab and you know how to force feed people. It also helped my dad was a drinker and my sister and I spent weekends in bars...so learning how to deal with the types became second skin. I am barely a social drinker but I have made a very decent living at slinging drinks. Am I crazy about doing it now? NO but I have some favorites and they tolerate my nonsense of useless information and I have an audience! I love the entertaining factor of it...and NO I do not flash anything!!!!
Mom died when I was 6 a victim of domestic violence. Her death was basically covered up and as a child I learned coping skills that most could never comprehend. I love the quiet...most times the silence is music to my anxiety ridden mind. I learned to paint and write out of a need to come out of my shell. Thus far, it hasn't worked because I still retreat for days on end.
The fame I seek isn't really fame at all...I am trying to make a good living to support myself and my household. I am a single mom that has always tried to make it work, make the money stretch and find pursuit of happiness in it all. But don't get me wrong, if __________ comes along and discovers me! Out of Affton I go.
I don't tolerate hatred, ignorance and cruelty. I like to believe the world is still a good place and people who work hard to achieve their dreams can make anything come to fruition.
I want to believe that love and commitment and a place to come home to is still where it is at! I don't believe all men are pigs and I forgive the woman who are gold diggers that give a woman like me a bad rap!!
How am I doing thus far???
I love my kids, my grandkids and my pets all six of them. I love my coffee!!!! I keep a clean house. I try to mother everyone! I am my grandmother's grand-daughter and I am my Aunt Phyllis' niece and don't you EVER forget the latter! I have a temper and you don't want to see it but more that often it takes a lot to get me that point. When I do get to that point, you better pray for your soul and take cover...cause there are not enough witch spells to keep you safe! LOL
And furthermore, I am to the core sensitive. I take everything personally. If you break my heart I will never forgive you and I never forget! I am a July baby and 52 is around the corner!
I am not perfect and I am a bit self righteous. I do believe in a higher power. I don't like to judge or be critical but sometimes how I view (what I think) the world should be doesn't measure up to how the world is.
And finally when I love...I love with all my heart. I am not a selfish person. Most people love me and those that don't...don't get where I am coming from. I am a dreamer... I am often so misunderstood! I am not better than anyone, I just aspire to be better than who I am!
So to wrap up this clarification on Narcissism, Addiction and The Only Child... It is what it is and I am who I am!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
Narcissism, Addiction and The Only Child is a hell of a title isn't it? And what does that have to do with me you ask? I am not sure but let's find out shall we?
I don't know if I really fall into any of these behaviors, but I am sure some of my traits might mimic the characterizations. I actually had to look up narcissism because a book I am trying to write one of my characters I thought might fall under this category. As I was reading the definition, "vanity, egotism and pride" I though OMG that could be me...LOL
Me vane? Could that be... Why doesn't everybody put on a full face of make-up when leaving the house to run to the mail box??? Ego??? What ego??? Yes, my works of art are fabulous! and I am a very talented artist...Why my name is Kitryn Marie...have you not heard of me?? Pride? What do I have to be so prideful?? Have you seen my oldest? He is a good looking body builder... What have you not seen my works of art??? They are tremendous pieces of my creative vision!!!!
I don't know is that really narcissism? I just figured it was my personality flaw. I don't walk around saying "oh look at me I am wonderful and you are a better person because of it"!
Addiction...boy that's a double edged sword! I do drink more than a pot of coffee a day. I have to watch my soap opera on more than a usual amount of time during the week. The computer OMHEAVENLY STARS!!! I will die without my computer...I must have my computer............ Why can't some addictions be good for you??
I'm the oldest of me and my sister! So only child I am not buttttttt........... because we are so different, we were raised differently. It is funny how you can grow up in the same house hold by the same set of rules, but they are interrupted different and how we were to abide by them were different. So yes growing up, I did feel like I was an only child. The line that separated me and my younger sister was so hard drawn there was no other way to be than an "only"
After carefully diagnosing all these descriptive entities...you decide? So again pardon my self indulgence...
My name... I go by Kitryn Marie because my ex-husband has been married so many times that there are too many with his last name and his mother is still living! And with no disrespect to her... she is one woman enough to carry that name. My mother named me after two gals she worked with... Kathryn and Katrina. Dad said, "sure we will name her Kitryn but we will call her "KIT" for short, and as she gets older and ask for help we will tell her "Do it yourself Kit"! (God's honest truth!)
I am a southside girl born and raised St. Louis Mo. Grand and Bates area...but there is nothing Southside about me! My head is always in the clouds! I am always looking to explore, writing, TV, art and expression. Like John Bon Jovi says, " I spent 20 years looking to find a new place" although with me those lines and faces I have been trying to erase! I have a foolish heart and I love the wrong kind.
I fell into food and beverage as a career because I was a divorced mom with two kids that I had to take care of. When you are Italian , You have the gift of gab and you know how to force feed people. It also helped my dad was a drinker and my sister and I spent weekends in bars...so learning how to deal with the types became second skin. I am barely a social drinker but I have made a very decent living at slinging drinks. Am I crazy about doing it now? NO but I have some favorites and they tolerate my nonsense of useless information and I have an audience! I love the entertaining factor of it...and NO I do not flash anything!!!!
Mom died when I was 6 a victim of domestic violence. Her death was basically covered up and as a child I learned coping skills that most could never comprehend. I love the quiet...most times the silence is music to my anxiety ridden mind. I learned to paint and write out of a need to come out of my shell. Thus far, it hasn't worked because I still retreat for days on end.
The fame I seek isn't really fame at all...I am trying to make a good living to support myself and my household. I am a single mom that has always tried to make it work, make the money stretch and find pursuit of happiness in it all. But don't get me wrong, if __________ comes along and discovers me! Out of Affton I go.
I don't tolerate hatred, ignorance and cruelty. I like to believe the world is still a good place and people who work hard to achieve their dreams can make anything come to fruition.
I want to believe that love and commitment and a place to come home to is still where it is at! I don't believe all men are pigs and I forgive the woman who are gold diggers that give a woman like me a bad rap!!
How am I doing thus far???
I love my kids, my grandkids and my pets all six of them. I love my coffee!!!! I keep a clean house. I try to mother everyone! I am my grandmother's grand-daughter and I am my Aunt Phyllis' niece and don't you EVER forget the latter! I have a temper and you don't want to see it but more that often it takes a lot to get me that point. When I do get to that point, you better pray for your soul and take cover...cause there are not enough witch spells to keep you safe! LOL
And furthermore, I am to the core sensitive. I take everything personally. If you break my heart I will never forgive you and I never forget! I am a July baby and 52 is around the corner!
I am not perfect and I am a bit self righteous. I do believe in a higher power. I don't like to judge or be critical but sometimes how I view (what I think) the world should be doesn't measure up to how the world is.
And finally when I love...I love with all my heart. I am not a selfish person. Most people love me and those that don't...don't get where I am coming from. I am a dreamer... I am often so misunderstood! I am not better than anyone, I just aspire to be better than who I am!
So to wrap up this clarification on Narcissism, Addiction and The Only Child... It is what it is and I am who I am!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
