Sprung
3/30/24 Saturday morning; the list of spring things that need to be attended to! My tulips have sprung! The iris and daylilies are in full green. My hostas and the variety of weeds that have accompanied the new growth... the list of things that must be attended to!
I look at my kitchen ceiling that has been peeling for 2 years, the floor my boxer (RIP Bruce) decided to gnaw on, and the cabinets screaming at me "Woman you are a painter. Paint us Olive Sprig" Which is a moss green known to others... I can throw in a chandelier I am not fond of that needs to come down and a ceiling fan that must be put up in my office for the impending heat that will filtrate this shoe box I live in. Sprung is the ideas that I have while I effortlessly comb through Pinterest.
Now mind you, I am in between gigs. This is temporary! I laugh... no I seriously laugh because once I land somewhere the grass will not grow under my feet and will desperately need to be mowed in that backyard that houses my sanctuary and where I paint, teach and find solace with the new set of (dinosaurs) pups I gained last April after the passing of my Bruce'ms! {God that is still devastating}
My car; a 20-year-old peace of wheels that gets me from point A - B just had more work done! You know it's a trend to keep what you have and fix it! According to my mechanic Mike, who I trust and respect. He says, "It is still cheaper to fix it than to get a new one" So there it is... sound advice. Although my guy, last week said, "Hey we can drive over to Elco Caddy and see what's on the lot. (after last week's hail storm) I shoot him a look and state, " I'd like windows with my car please" He laughs. His humor ... let's just say I roll my eyes a lot!
What hasn't sprung is my new direction; Although my cameras are charged and the car is gassed up; I have no clue what's next. My famous line has always been "all the answers come in the silence" Ziltch, nada, zero... I got nothing! That grass may be popping up in my yard but the grass that is not happening under my feet is not making me any money! That could be an issue to some but I am not worried... yet.
My resume is updated and my association with LinkedIn is once more. That is a conundrum because I am not a corporate girly and will never be but if you read my resume; you would think I would have been all of my working 30 yrs. There is such a mixed view regarding staying in the same field but having ventures in entrepreneurial stuff. The balance in home, life, work, adventures, and experiences combined with money earned from passion, purpose, and a mission has been a path not for the faint of heart.
There are years I never want to relive and the pressure of aggravated assault; the verbal garbage said and used against me to conform to someone else's idea of living. Now knowing what I know {through studying life coaching with a heavy emphasis on narcissism} I can say, that people twist and project in order to remain in control. These people want someone to provide for them so they can continue living life with no responsibilities and or no accountability for actions that are detrimental and damaging; regarding moral conduct and personal behaviors.
I have seen too many single parents hook up with whomever looking for someone else to pick up the slack. They have bashed the other parent making them out to be the bad guy when in fact; they drove the other parent away. The abuse, addictions, cheating, and selfish financial gain... give me, I am entitled. You owe this to me! You go to work and I am just going to foolishly waste and abuse the hand that feeds us. I have also seen these types go through several relationships devastating lives. Living with such irreparable finances they will stoop to levels for a good time, wearing a mask, pretending and blindly leading the other on... move in with me! This will just make it easier. (on me) Only in the end do they have to pay that person back the money that was supposed to get them out of hock and to get them out of their house. Once that relationship was found to be a farce and no longer a needed supply someone else gladly was waiting in the wings. A newfound supply and a hero was born and now the apparent I will rescue you from your disadvantages that sadly and devastatingly, in the end, disrupted life for many. Just repeat, rinse, and recycle.
Then enters, the new supply, After laying low. This type, once again, swoops in and listens to the loss and woes of another. They share woe-is-me stories and it's always someone else's unfortunate experience that landed them in situations out of their control. Grief and loss which the narcissist will use to their advantage. Hoping through a new take on spirituality, faith, prayers, and absolution; they will be resolved and no one has to know what they personally caused in the many lives of the others. Let me just add from a professional point of view; that when there is personal loss due to death, these people only have hope and prayer to hang on to. They have already been through the worst so everything through their eyes is now blindly seen. This good-natured person will become a bore to the narcissist. There will not be enough excitement and nothing to chase. Complacency will set in ... and the wandering eye will search for a new fix. Even if the new person is just on the side!
Well, the time is 9:55. I have a few emails to reply to and my own grass that needs to be watered! The grass is always greener where you tend to it best. Where ideas can be sprung and a land full of opportunities waiting to happen! Rich experiences rooted in fertile soil and roads that have been paved for success!
I teach creative-minded women who want more from life, leaving the 9-5 for a more purpose-filled life. Business coaching; start the side hustle. The class is 95.00 for a 2-3 hour in-person learning experience
I also teach how to create a vision board through life coaching. The class is 65.00 for a 2-3 hour in-person learning experience understanding where you have been and who how and what has shaped your life in the choices you have made. It also teaches you how to refocus your direction so you can achieve a better life with a better-deserved outcome for your highest good.
And of course, I teach group painting lessons at 45.00 a person min of 10 guests. The class is not only fun and entertaining but I teach in perception and perspective while you move the paints around creating an image from the conceptual words I use to teach you!
Be happy and be blessed! Fate turns on a dime!
Kitryn Marie
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