Is It Too Much?

 I often wonder about my requests and or requirements in my romantic relationships. Of course, the top condition being... Be loyal and in my absence, talk all great things about me, defend my honor, speak on my behalf by proxy, and be true to it all! Is this too much to ask?

Is it too much to ask after a long week of hard work for you to leave your disapproval of your co-workers, your societal behaviors, your off-color remarks, and your condescending views at the gate of your employer's parking lot? Is it too much to ask?

Is it too much for me to expect you to take care of yourself? Your health, your aches and pains, your mental default, your physical appearance, and your outward image that everyone sees when they have come in contact with you?

Is it too much to ask to be talked to kindly, to be touched gently and gracefully and not to be approached as a work tool? Is it too much to ask for you to be aware of your tone not only to me but to others as you speak? Is it too much to ask you to be personally aware of your characteristics derived from who knows where but they outwardly are exposed in clear sight to those that try to speak to you? Have you been made aware that the demeanor you possess often is seen in a manner that others question? Is it too much to ask for you to listen to yourself as you speak?

Is it too much to ask for you not to criticize looking for faults because you can't be happy with yourself, your situation, and or the surrounding you choose to stay stuck in? Is it too much to ask that all narcissism be put in the trash, at the curb so it is never seen again? The world is ugly enough...

Is it too much to ask that you keep an identity that is fulfilling to your highest good and I shall keep my identity free-spirited and creative so that I am able to express what needs to be taught to the world at large? There is more than black and white! There is more than a rigid routine! There is more than a regime created by the matrix! Is it too much to ask that I want to see you happy and living your best life?

Is it too much to ask that if I prepare you a meal, you do not get to criticize what is being served? If I have taken the time to put together something that I had in my freezer, you do not get to display a variety of reasons to why you are not fond! Is it too much to ask that if you are not agreeable to the arrangements then by all means...you make other plans for us? Is it too much to ask that for once in a while just take the wheel? I'm exhausted from trying to steer head a situation that has had no true destination. Jumping through hoops to see what just might land some long-term dining excursions. It all depletes the palette! Making a person lose their appetite!

Is it too much to ask that when I need space...I need space! That time I am asking is to clear my head, calm my nerves, steady a direction and just regroup who I am without you! I am not an extension of you nor are you of me! We are different people just trying to find a fine line we can agree upon! Just as opposites attract...you stay on your side and I'll stay on mine! Parallel is always negotiable!

Is it too much to ask that I would want you happy and long-term fulfilled, healthy in a craft/ trade that I know you excel at? Is it too much to ask that you allow me to be responsible as I know how without your rules of engagement? Wars and battles are to be left for fields and men with no countries...not in a home where fires burn deeply rooted in sentiment. Is it too much to ask...leave me to my independence! Do not and I repeat...do not control the environment because you refuse to change your playbook?

Too many people do not ask for what they need and they settle for some condition that is never negotiated but often presented loud and clear because someone does not know how to communicate and are used to easy, familiar: they refuse to grow and change bad habits. Growing old in Outdated methods...

It is also not too much to ask for pleasant outings, adventures, experiences, and friends in all happy social situations. Engaging with family and not harboring childhood traumas that have never been addressed! It is not too much to expect respect on all levels! from all parties involved!

I never thought I asked too much in any of my romantic relationships...but apparently, I have!


We discuss these things in my vision board classes/life coaching sessions and often in my painting classes! If interested please book a class. YOu can inquire at kitrynmarie@gmail.com


For today and forever...Be Happy Be Blessed


Kitryn Marie












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