Irony Or Karma...A Life Lived
Once upon a time and all the irony. Life has a serious way of reminding you of every detail; Or is that Karma? Something that once was, could have been and all the things that made things go sideways. {A women never forgets and tucks all the assorted details and moments away secure in her mind pretending all is ok, managing to hide the crushing facts and hurt but a man will push the events all aside, bury it deep in his mind hoping the incident will go far away never again to be brought up. He will go on to the next and the next and the next after till he either f.cks it away or drinks it away so he never has to deal with the assorted failures that he created.}
The irony that life plays, the man that kept his children from their mother only to end up with someone whose child was removed from her by the courts... and given custody to the child's father. The man that has not fathered biologically a child secretively, he claims as his own ...only to have a grandchild that needs a medical procedure and by some happenstance DNA proves there is no match. The woman that flees an alcoholic abusive relationship that contributed to her toxicity, to fall prey to someone she meets on the internet and is coerced into moving far away becoming an imprisoned victim with no where to turn for help. She ran into the arms of worse than what she had... by trying to escape a life looking for an easy way out. (Karma I am here to remind)
The more I learn the more I see played out right in front of my eyes. Once awakened you can never look at anything the same as before. It stands out screaming in plain sight what others fail to have recoginized. The normal disfunction people will live and go to no ends so the truth can be covered up with cruel deception.
Siblings that are polar-opposites having to come to terms with the facts they have been lied to their whole life now looking at each other like if they lied to us about this!!! What else have they lied to us about? Shattered existances to cover infideltiies and family skeletons that have come crashing out of a closet. Deceased family members that knew the secrets that they have taken to the grave. ( I have found even in the still of the dead... they talk louder than when alive and messages revealed in some strange sequence of truth always present itself when you lease expect it) Karma
Grief that has taken over with nowhere to place this entity that has descended in their lives. Gaping holes that can not be filled and meandering actions that have been put in auto pilot becuase they can't cope and function with the loss. Words consoled by others have no meaning and empty words that offer no comfort. Phrases just said becuase no one knows what to do to make any of it right again. Where there is grief... there is no amount of time that allows one to GET OVER IT AND MOVE ON. The anger that follows and one has to learn what once was is no longer and eventually a new normal will find its way.
I never talk about the death of my brother-n-law the horrific sensless way he ended his life and how my sister had to find his lifeless body. How far she has come and the countless hours of retracing facts and endless tears, gripping on just to survive. My cousin Stef who was removed from her OWN house by the law, false accusations made against her so the (asshole) cowardly man who she had been with over 10 years, cheating on her having her removed so he could marry someone else having that leach and her 4 kids move in to HER house! The countless draining court appearances and the strength, determintation and climbing a successful ladder to regain diginity. My friends who have lost their children due to drug over doses and accidental deaths...the sleepless nights of agony knowing they lost a piece of who they are ... and will never be the same.
Irony and how life wants to recall what has transcended, taken place and now resides in our life! How we are to accept what we can not change and come to terms with STRONG and having no other choice but to be! I watched my grandma lose two of her daughters. I watched her heart sad and grief stricken step in and take care of my sister and myself. I watched secrets after secrets come falling out of closets and when I asked her, "Gram how did you manage?" She looked at me and said there was no other choice but to be strong, I had you girls!"
Irony? Lessons? Education? The reasons I have studied and watched true social experiments right in front of my eyes. The lengths people will go through to cover up... what they want no one to know and have the audacity to call it a truth.
Someone grasping at straws once said to me, "you are a very unhappy person?" I laughed! No I am a realist with nothing to hide. I have lived my life and will continue to live my life out loud with no secrets to cover up. In order to come to grips with reality, I needed to come to understand the multi-facets of deception and how LIFE CAN SLAP YOU IN THE FACE WITH TRUTHS. Karma, often not fair, kind or pleasant. It is life and how you participate in it! It is not what you lose but what you have left and how you can AWAKWEN, COPE and share a story/scenario to show another side of life so others can come to terms with what they are personally dealing with.
I can teach from my perspective, my Life Coaching studies and the education that these last 58 years have taught me. We all fall prey to irony, karma and the way it reminds us of Something that once was, could have been and all the things that made things go sideways.
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
https://kitryn-marie.weebly.com
The irony that life plays, the man that kept his children from their mother only to end up with someone whose child was removed from her by the courts... and given custody to the child's father. The man that has not fathered biologically a child secretively, he claims as his own ...only to have a grandchild that needs a medical procedure and by some happenstance DNA proves there is no match. The woman that flees an alcoholic abusive relationship that contributed to her toxicity, to fall prey to someone she meets on the internet and is coerced into moving far away becoming an imprisoned victim with no where to turn for help. She ran into the arms of worse than what she had... by trying to escape a life looking for an easy way out. (Karma I am here to remind)
The more I learn the more I see played out right in front of my eyes. Once awakened you can never look at anything the same as before. It stands out screaming in plain sight what others fail to have recoginized. The normal disfunction people will live and go to no ends so the truth can be covered up with cruel deception.
Siblings that are polar-opposites having to come to terms with the facts they have been lied to their whole life now looking at each other like if they lied to us about this!!! What else have they lied to us about? Shattered existances to cover infideltiies and family skeletons that have come crashing out of a closet. Deceased family members that knew the secrets that they have taken to the grave. ( I have found even in the still of the dead... they talk louder than when alive and messages revealed in some strange sequence of truth always present itself when you lease expect it) Karma
Grief that has taken over with nowhere to place this entity that has descended in their lives. Gaping holes that can not be filled and meandering actions that have been put in auto pilot becuase they can't cope and function with the loss. Words consoled by others have no meaning and empty words that offer no comfort. Phrases just said becuase no one knows what to do to make any of it right again. Where there is grief... there is no amount of time that allows one to GET OVER IT AND MOVE ON. The anger that follows and one has to learn what once was is no longer and eventually a new normal will find its way.
I never talk about the death of my brother-n-law the horrific sensless way he ended his life and how my sister had to find his lifeless body. How far she has come and the countless hours of retracing facts and endless tears, gripping on just to survive. My cousin Stef who was removed from her OWN house by the law, false accusations made against her so the (asshole) cowardly man who she had been with over 10 years, cheating on her having her removed so he could marry someone else having that leach and her 4 kids move in to HER house! The countless draining court appearances and the strength, determintation and climbing a successful ladder to regain diginity. My friends who have lost their children due to drug over doses and accidental deaths...the sleepless nights of agony knowing they lost a piece of who they are ... and will never be the same.
Irony and how life wants to recall what has transcended, taken place and now resides in our life! How we are to accept what we can not change and come to terms with STRONG and having no other choice but to be! I watched my grandma lose two of her daughters. I watched her heart sad and grief stricken step in and take care of my sister and myself. I watched secrets after secrets come falling out of closets and when I asked her, "Gram how did you manage?" She looked at me and said there was no other choice but to be strong, I had you girls!"
Irony? Lessons? Education? The reasons I have studied and watched true social experiments right in front of my eyes. The lengths people will go through to cover up... what they want no one to know and have the audacity to call it a truth.
Someone grasping at straws once said to me, "you are a very unhappy person?" I laughed! No I am a realist with nothing to hide. I have lived my life and will continue to live my life out loud with no secrets to cover up. In order to come to grips with reality, I needed to come to understand the multi-facets of deception and how LIFE CAN SLAP YOU IN THE FACE WITH TRUTHS. Karma, often not fair, kind or pleasant. It is life and how you participate in it! It is not what you lose but what you have left and how you can AWAKWEN, COPE and share a story/scenario to show another side of life so others can come to terms with what they are personally dealing with.
I can teach from my perspective, my Life Coaching studies and the education that these last 58 years have taught me. We all fall prey to irony, karma and the way it reminds us of Something that once was, could have been and all the things that made things go sideways.
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
https://kitryn-marie.weebly.com
