It Is That Time of Year... Let's Recap
It is coming down to that time of year when I need to seriously look at how far I have come! This year of 2018 has been compared to 2008, 2011 and the worst of 2013. If there was a theme song to this year it would be "St. Elmo's Fire." This year besides some wonderful day trips and a fabulous vacation 2018 has borderlined insanity! I have never seen so many ups and downs, back and forths... 2 steps forward and 8 hops back!
I might; maybe can see daylight with a tunnel I am ready to get out of! I am very ready to head completely in another direction. Oh, I will still coach my creative mindset types! I still will strive to speak on relationships goals. I will still make many references to what I had to go through to get me to this stage in my life. I will absolutely still write and call out all behavior as I see fit! I did not take all those classes and study to let awareness and intelligence fall by the wayside! I will also strive to make it to a bigger platform and speak to a larger audience in person! (and if I am lucky there is a house to fix up and flip and there is going to be a major move!) You can bet your last dollar on all that!
It is so important to draw lines in the sand and know which ones you can cross! It has been more important to set boundaries and know which ones can allow certain people close enough to get in. I will always be a guarded woman! I will always be cautious and mindfully independent not to allow anyone ever again to deceive my good intentions and or take anything away from who I am! This is not about dollars and cents it never was! This is about integrity and character and from what I have recognized and "diagnosed" over the last 3 years, it finally is all making sense!
A person who can not find his own footing because of lack of accountability and addiction, relying on whomever they can cling to; to get ahead sucking the life out of, making the other person feel bad about her choices and examine all motives because of harsh blame and lies of deep deception...is a cruel game of control, abuse and is a very weak sick individual. A person who has kept his children at bay from their mother was never to protect them but to hurt her. Then to spread ill words and allowing her to take fall for something he had his hand in... because of an addiction. Then to siphon a parents bank account over a period of years because he found it more important to cohort with a bunch of low life drudges of society in order to make himself feel superior... and then pretending that his children were so well taken care of! DNA ... and words that do not match! Sliding doors and revolving doors and the number of women that went through them, taking money for jobs than purchasing illegal substances never having enough to finish the job running off to borrow money from "others" to finish what was started. People who are addicts whether they are not using or not drinking for a period of time or not is still an addict. Crack pipes and fires... an addict! Snorting on an occasion... an addict! The behavior just modified for the person in front of them / for a short period of time. There is always a secret and there is always something that falls out of a closet! Invoices that had disappeared because of parking lot affairs had with the woman in charge of billing.
Vehicles bought with inheritances but yet bragged on buying with cash because of steady work. An addict will lie and steal and spin that web any way he can to make himself look good to whoever is new and fresh standing before him! Some women would have better luck with pig farmers and loggers! but then again liar will tell that tale any way he can to make himself look like the hero rescuing her from a life in the middle of nowhere!
Beast and hags will always be appealing to someone deluded by... and when he gets bored which he will, there will always be someone waiting in the wings to catch that next high and chase that next thrill. To honestly attach to someone there has to be an emotional connection but for a man that has come from a domestically violent household all he learned was control, abuse, and isolation. He now has it down to a science and is a chip off the old block! Emotional connections are a myth...to him and he is not able to connect. All the charm and smooth words and promises... are a bunch of empty nothings... sadly the void of an addict!
I have said it before and time again and time again, a bar is a bar is a bar! Lodges and clubs where there is a group of people, throw in alcohol and the false pretense of "doing good" is a false illusion full of chaos and drama ... the addicted and the fallen who have congregated... to give a "sense of feel good for the cause" He is not there for any cause but for the attention that will be given for his attending to the cause. Here for the show...and for the accolades attached to the attendance of!
Addicts and narcissist a hand in hand production... yes this is what a few years of classes have taught me! Rewiring my mind has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Being involved all those years with an addict cost me my health... I do not know what has been worse. Recovering from an illness or recovering from the deception, lies and the betrayal! This year alone... I have gained, I have seen the truth... I have finally been able to put so many pieces together! Not that all makes sense but in time the rest will present itself and karma will surely show up to reveal!
This year alone, I have become braver and more independent than I have ever been. I finally can see a bank account slowly growing and dollars once again flowing from my hard work! I have found a deeper voice with a deeper cause, helping others to see what real potential with a creative talent looks like. Taking that God-given talent and explaining, "you are not given that talent for nothing" You are to utilize that craft in any way you can! You start with what you know and with what you have to work with. You speak till your voice no longer shakes and you walk that stage no matter how big the platform and you pace that floor til you get that audience to pay attention! Where there is a following there is a thirsty hungry bunch of onlookers seeking more to their life, It is though up to (me) to guide with no ego but to serve with a purpose. It is about opportunity and the abundance that flows through the opportunities gained. I don't need a million dollars nor do I need to be that 1 in million girl. I just need to say one thing that makes the biggest difference in anyone's life! Believe in self and what self can do... to make anything happen! Because it is possible!
I will be available for speaking engagements spring of 2019. My pricing for speaking engagements can be found on my website kitryn-marie.weebly.com.
Also I have partnered with The Gourmet Cupboard, please look for my cooking videos and live stream on Facebook and you tube! www.thegourmetcupboard.com/sites/kitrynmarie9248
I might; maybe can see daylight with a tunnel I am ready to get out of! I am very ready to head completely in another direction. Oh, I will still coach my creative mindset types! I still will strive to speak on relationships goals. I will still make many references to what I had to go through to get me to this stage in my life. I will absolutely still write and call out all behavior as I see fit! I did not take all those classes and study to let awareness and intelligence fall by the wayside! I will also strive to make it to a bigger platform and speak to a larger audience in person! (and if I am lucky there is a house to fix up and flip and there is going to be a major move!) You can bet your last dollar on all that!
It is so important to draw lines in the sand and know which ones you can cross! It has been more important to set boundaries and know which ones can allow certain people close enough to get in. I will always be a guarded woman! I will always be cautious and mindfully independent not to allow anyone ever again to deceive my good intentions and or take anything away from who I am! This is not about dollars and cents it never was! This is about integrity and character and from what I have recognized and "diagnosed" over the last 3 years, it finally is all making sense!
A person who can not find his own footing because of lack of accountability and addiction, relying on whomever they can cling to; to get ahead sucking the life out of, making the other person feel bad about her choices and examine all motives because of harsh blame and lies of deep deception...is a cruel game of control, abuse and is a very weak sick individual. A person who has kept his children at bay from their mother was never to protect them but to hurt her. Then to spread ill words and allowing her to take fall for something he had his hand in... because of an addiction. Then to siphon a parents bank account over a period of years because he found it more important to cohort with a bunch of low life drudges of society in order to make himself feel superior... and then pretending that his children were so well taken care of! DNA ... and words that do not match! Sliding doors and revolving doors and the number of women that went through them, taking money for jobs than purchasing illegal substances never having enough to finish the job running off to borrow money from "others" to finish what was started. People who are addicts whether they are not using or not drinking for a period of time or not is still an addict. Crack pipes and fires... an addict! Snorting on an occasion... an addict! The behavior just modified for the person in front of them / for a short period of time. There is always a secret and there is always something that falls out of a closet! Invoices that had disappeared because of parking lot affairs had with the woman in charge of billing.
Vehicles bought with inheritances but yet bragged on buying with cash because of steady work. An addict will lie and steal and spin that web any way he can to make himself look good to whoever is new and fresh standing before him! Some women would have better luck with pig farmers and loggers! but then again liar will tell that tale any way he can to make himself look like the hero rescuing her from a life in the middle of nowhere!
Beast and hags will always be appealing to someone deluded by... and when he gets bored which he will, there will always be someone waiting in the wings to catch that next high and chase that next thrill. To honestly attach to someone there has to be an emotional connection but for a man that has come from a domestically violent household all he learned was control, abuse, and isolation. He now has it down to a science and is a chip off the old block! Emotional connections are a myth...to him and he is not able to connect. All the charm and smooth words and promises... are a bunch of empty nothings... sadly the void of an addict!
I have said it before and time again and time again, a bar is a bar is a bar! Lodges and clubs where there is a group of people, throw in alcohol and the false pretense of "doing good" is a false illusion full of chaos and drama ... the addicted and the fallen who have congregated... to give a "sense of feel good for the cause" He is not there for any cause but for the attention that will be given for his attending to the cause. Here for the show...and for the accolades attached to the attendance of!
Addicts and narcissist a hand in hand production... yes this is what a few years of classes have taught me! Rewiring my mind has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Being involved all those years with an addict cost me my health... I do not know what has been worse. Recovering from an illness or recovering from the deception, lies and the betrayal! This year alone... I have gained, I have seen the truth... I have finally been able to put so many pieces together! Not that all makes sense but in time the rest will present itself and karma will surely show up to reveal!
This year alone, I have become braver and more independent than I have ever been. I finally can see a bank account slowly growing and dollars once again flowing from my hard work! I have found a deeper voice with a deeper cause, helping others to see what real potential with a creative talent looks like. Taking that God-given talent and explaining, "you are not given that talent for nothing" You are to utilize that craft in any way you can! You start with what you know and with what you have to work with. You speak till your voice no longer shakes and you walk that stage no matter how big the platform and you pace that floor til you get that audience to pay attention! Where there is a following there is a thirsty hungry bunch of onlookers seeking more to their life, It is though up to (me) to guide with no ego but to serve with a purpose. It is about opportunity and the abundance that flows through the opportunities gained. I don't need a million dollars nor do I need to be that 1 in million girl. I just need to say one thing that makes the biggest difference in anyone's life! Believe in self and what self can do... to make anything happen! Because it is possible!
I will be available for speaking engagements spring of 2019. My pricing for speaking engagements can be found on my website kitryn-marie.weebly.com.
Also I have partnered with The Gourmet Cupboard, please look for my cooking videos and live stream on Facebook and you tube! www.thegourmetcupboard.com/sites/kitrynmarie9248
@k.m.creativedesign
I have taken the last several weeks off to enjoy the holiday and take care of a few health issues...
As always thank you for all that have followed, emailed and enjoyed my works! May 2019 be the year of great recovery and rebound! May love and life fill you with the highest good and you are called to your highest purpose!
I have taken the last several weeks off to enjoy the holiday and take care of a few health issues...
As always thank you for all that have followed, emailed and enjoyed my works! May 2019 be the year of great recovery and rebound! May love and life fill you with the highest good and you are called to your highest purpose!
If you are in the St. Louis area and are needing a coach for biz and or a personal mentor please reach out! Also if you are interested in learning more about learning a craft and taking it to another level visit kmgraphicapparelandart.weebly.com to learn about all the art classes I offer!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
May We in 2019 Meet In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
