Reality Silenced

The reality of quiet, when the phone doesn't ring, the offers stop coming and you sit and contemplate your next move. After months of aligning all the stars, gaining information and sharing research to all the prospects have come to an end. Your mind finally can come to a suppose-ed rest.

The body goes limp, and weary takes on a whole other meaning. You are exhausted...

Even as I sit here and type out this little scenario I am tired and emotionally drained. For a complete year, I have poured my talents, heart and soul into the universe... releasing feelings from the deepest part of my female being to a higher power so he/she could take over and make anything ... SOMETHING happen.

On a course of a different routine...

If ?? I couldn't have the guy... then could I at least have the gig? LOL It seemed like a fair request! ;)

Never wanting to lose my faith, my sense of humor or a true sight of reality... I do have to ask, OK, Now what? I have learned all the answers come in the silence and although I am not strategically pursuing anything... my mind does not know how to just shut up and or turn off.

It's worse than anxiety. Anxiety comes and goes in waves... that I have learned to understand. Even though, I have no control over its plague... I understand it.

Like so many other things... I HAVE NO CONTROL  other than the way I feel.

You can not make anything happen that is not supposed to happen. No matter how many open lines of dialog you leave lingering and or lines of bait you put out there. If it's not gonna bite ... IT AIN'T GONNA BITE. (Fishing applies to more than fish!)

I wonder where all this drive and persistence came from? Why my mind and heart are so set on ....

The reality of quiet is ...

The phone is not ringing because there is nothing to give... no one has anything to offer... the information you gathered has been given and the masses heard the message... it's done!

You did release it to the universe now let the universe do its work!

The intricate particles of heart and soul  are out there... turn your mind off  and enjoy this calm.
Fate can turn on a dime! ( Thanks dad!) and when all those particles land... be ready!

Guy included... :D

So as I sit, silence and focus on the gentle hum that really wants to resonate in my mind... I notice even the silence has a rhythm and with that rhythm I need to correlate my heart and remain in sync!

So that I stay quiet in the reality of silence.

Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie



Popular posts from this blog

Parts Of The Missing Puzzle

Image
****When He Had Her**** She didn't need to explain anything to anyone anymore. That was the thing about hurt, grief and anger, she did what she needed to do to cope. Over a long period, she had been through more emotional hell than anyone could imagine With no choice left, she had picked up the pieces and replaced them in some order. At this point, the only thing that mattered was how her current pieces were gonna fit! It was a puzzle, missing pieces with no rhyme or reason. Speculation, deductions, detective work, voices from a crowd that loved to talk... and who had seen first hand. A mystery... with no resolve. Questionable choices made from drunken behavior. Low self-worth on his part that he would settle for the likes of an unappealing manipulating repulsive looking woman. She had caused enough ruckus amongst quite a few of his kind and yet he let her bull doze her way in. For the sake of not being alone and letting someone put his house in order. What had he said to her...
Read more

The Other Side...Of What?

Image
 I think where I last left you, last blog post, I was stepping back. I was changing things, redirecting, grabbing my camera and heading... SOMEWHERE! As an entrepreneur, you get to change it as many times as you desire! You wear many hats, many glasses, switch up products and you get to offer as many services as you are talented to do! Since our last visit, I rejoined AVON and re-signed with the Gourmet Cupboard. I also am waiting on status to be a brand ambassador for l'ange hair products and tools! I have ordered new business cards for my photography, I had another art show and I had a fabulous painting class that I taught for 11 women! I had 4 brand new tires put on my car and again had some exhaust issues fixed on the vehicle that at this time, I am keeping instead of trying to maintain a new car payment. That may have more to do with new car payment vs horse board! I said I was stepping back but it looks like I just went in another direction... AGAIN! The podcast set up I had ...
Read more