The Final Outcome
I'm a few days early writing. I am trying to get in the habit of writing on Sunday mornings. It would so seem that after a week of daily work and personal rituals, the madness that flows in and out of my mind wants to be jaunted down. For some reason though tonight the screeching sound of my thoughts is beckoning me to sit and write so here I am Friday night 5:28 getting it all down...
Someone recently asked me, " Do you really think we want to know every detail of your life"? (He wasn't being ignorant he was just seriously asking?) My reply was, "Why wouldn't you"? "I have nothing to hide nor nothing to be ashamed of"! Like everyone else with a full plate and I don't mind talking about it or sharing what goes on. I have a lot of nonsense that goes on in my life and I use writing as a sort of therapy. I could see if I was writing a tell all about my sexual escapades...(OK, this where we all laugh out loud!!) Yes that would be too much information but I see no harm or foul in writing about what happens in a weeks time in my life. No different than if I had a weekly newspaper column and was given an assignment. I also would like to think some of my "Kit Wisdom" might come in hand to someone who needs also!!!
With that all said, In the last couple of weeks I have noticed quite a few missing pieces from my life that I am trying to gather so that I can complete my mission? It is frustrating at best when you try to implement a new plan and something is just missing from the equation. I am hoping as I write and I see it all down it gets clearer what it is I am trying to achieve because I am not a goal setter. I am a dreamer with a vision and I am looking for a way to have it manifest...
Not effectively learning how to be a goal setter I have never understood why does every outcome have to be so planned? We all have been down that road where disappointment and heartache has taken over from a failed aim. The outcome was so off that I set myself up for failure. There have been many a plans in my life that I methodically step by step in stone put in place almost dead sure fire was going to happen only for it to abruptly blow up in my face. The emotional devastation was almost too much to bare and if that's what I get for setting a goal NO THANK YOU! I am not suggesting that any of us live by the seat of our pants but try not to be so set on one ending. Give yourself permission to think of several alternatives for the finale'.
Think of it like this, does an author know how his/her book is going to end when they start to write it? I would imagine no. It starts with a concept and you take that concept and start to build upon it. The same goes for my paintings. I get an idea. I mull it over for a while. I might look at other similar images to get my creative thought process going and then I mentally picture an image and then start with placement of the objects but until it is complete I don't know what the end result is going to be. More than often how I envisioned the painting in the beginning is totally different in the end!
Here is another example, lets take dating. You like the person. You enjoy the person. You desire the person. If?? ( I use the term loosely because as you get older fear really sets in and it messes with that person's reality!) so if that person enters your world if you don't go or follow along with every step in the process of dating you are not going to know if he/she is the one you are going to end up. You don't know what the final stage is going to be. No matter how hard you plot, plan, beg or plead... LOL The end result just has to work itself out. You can not get to Z without starting at A. You have to ride it out and play it by ear!!
I know it is hard for me to wing anything. I like to be in control and take charge. I don't like to sit back and watch as a bystander. I am a full participant. When I want something, I want something. I set a plan in motion and plant seeds hoping that something fruitful is going to come from that! I have learned you can not be so set in your ways that you won't allow another outcome. I think it is better to not really plan the outcome until it presents itself. It is a blind faith of sorts knowing one way or another something is going to work out the way it is suppose to.
Faith in general is a big undertaking. It is the biggest testament of trust any human can endure. It is difficult when you know you want something so badly and it is at your fingertips but yet not close enough for you to have... the stepping stones to that path haven't been laid out yet and you must wait to see what is going to be needed to place it in motion.
So as I stated, I am gathering pieces, planting seeds and watching to see how my mission is going to end and when I say end I really mean begin!!! Having the intention is the first step. So here I am at A... now while getting to Z... I am going to have watch, wait and wing it! Oi Vey!
As I replied to my friend, 'why would'n't you want to know"? I say the same to all of you!!! So, I invite you to watch with me...Let's wing it together to see how this direction unfolds. After all what fun is a journey if you don't have friends to tag along with!!!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
Someone recently asked me, " Do you really think we want to know every detail of your life"? (He wasn't being ignorant he was just seriously asking?) My reply was, "Why wouldn't you"? "I have nothing to hide nor nothing to be ashamed of"! Like everyone else with a full plate and I don't mind talking about it or sharing what goes on. I have a lot of nonsense that goes on in my life and I use writing as a sort of therapy. I could see if I was writing a tell all about my sexual escapades...(OK, this where we all laugh out loud!!) Yes that would be too much information but I see no harm or foul in writing about what happens in a weeks time in my life. No different than if I had a weekly newspaper column and was given an assignment. I also would like to think some of my "Kit Wisdom" might come in hand to someone who needs also!!!
With that all said, In the last couple of weeks I have noticed quite a few missing pieces from my life that I am trying to gather so that I can complete my mission? It is frustrating at best when you try to implement a new plan and something is just missing from the equation. I am hoping as I write and I see it all down it gets clearer what it is I am trying to achieve because I am not a goal setter. I am a dreamer with a vision and I am looking for a way to have it manifest...
Not effectively learning how to be a goal setter I have never understood why does every outcome have to be so planned? We all have been down that road where disappointment and heartache has taken over from a failed aim. The outcome was so off that I set myself up for failure. There have been many a plans in my life that I methodically step by step in stone put in place almost dead sure fire was going to happen only for it to abruptly blow up in my face. The emotional devastation was almost too much to bare and if that's what I get for setting a goal NO THANK YOU! I am not suggesting that any of us live by the seat of our pants but try not to be so set on one ending. Give yourself permission to think of several alternatives for the finale'.
Think of it like this, does an author know how his/her book is going to end when they start to write it? I would imagine no. It starts with a concept and you take that concept and start to build upon it. The same goes for my paintings. I get an idea. I mull it over for a while. I might look at other similar images to get my creative thought process going and then I mentally picture an image and then start with placement of the objects but until it is complete I don't know what the end result is going to be. More than often how I envisioned the painting in the beginning is totally different in the end!
Here is another example, lets take dating. You like the person. You enjoy the person. You desire the person. If?? ( I use the term loosely because as you get older fear really sets in and it messes with that person's reality!) so if that person enters your world if you don't go or follow along with every step in the process of dating you are not going to know if he/she is the one you are going to end up. You don't know what the final stage is going to be. No matter how hard you plot, plan, beg or plead... LOL The end result just has to work itself out. You can not get to Z without starting at A. You have to ride it out and play it by ear!!
I know it is hard for me to wing anything. I like to be in control and take charge. I don't like to sit back and watch as a bystander. I am a full participant. When I want something, I want something. I set a plan in motion and plant seeds hoping that something fruitful is going to come from that! I have learned you can not be so set in your ways that you won't allow another outcome. I think it is better to not really plan the outcome until it presents itself. It is a blind faith of sorts knowing one way or another something is going to work out the way it is suppose to.
Faith in general is a big undertaking. It is the biggest testament of trust any human can endure. It is difficult when you know you want something so badly and it is at your fingertips but yet not close enough for you to have... the stepping stones to that path haven't been laid out yet and you must wait to see what is going to be needed to place it in motion.
So as I stated, I am gathering pieces, planting seeds and watching to see how my mission is going to end and when I say end I really mean begin!!! Having the intention is the first step. So here I am at A... now while getting to Z... I am going to have watch, wait and wing it! Oi Vey!
As I replied to my friend, 'why would'n't you want to know"? I say the same to all of you!!! So, I invite you to watch with me...Let's wing it together to see how this direction unfolds. After all what fun is a journey if you don't have friends to tag along with!!!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
