Connections~Conditions~The Programming

 Running mouths gather feet; it's been that type of week. Once again, I have experienced true colors and the lack of compassion shown for change, loss, and heart-aching devastation. I have absolutely no room in my life for petty, take-backers and people who gossip because nothing in their own personal life has offered them peace, contentment, and soul-satisfying connections. These people are not happy unless they can create discord and wreak havoc in others' lives. While processing... It's been a week! My anxiety is on high alert.

I read energy so well, I see motives and madness in the works before it presents itself. In real-time, as a collective, watch who you can consider an ally, friend, or family member. Look at behavior and for the love of... if they gossip to you about others, I promise you, your feet are running in their mouths too.

  I cannot stress enough: turn the TV off. You are not qualified to run this country, so therefore unless you truly understand how "the business" part of this country runs. Shut your mouth. If something rubs you raw and you feel the need to distribute opinion, look at your bank account, the way you are working, your own cost of healthcare, and who you have listened to; taking in information that is biased because a group of people want to sway you to believe a narrative that only benefits a handful that should not be receiving anything. This week I had to walk away from customers who wanted to spew politics, knowing their income far surpassed 6 figures, yet they felt the need to share how so many will go without~ without ever in their life needing anything or lending a $$$ to help anyone (they personally know) who has truly gone without. There is something to be said about the elite, well-to-do, and better-off being out of touch with the true working class.

 Healthcare as a whole needs to be dismantled. Every healthcare facility needs to be audited for overcharging and the kickbacks they have received for prescribing and overmedicating individuals without addressing the core of their issue. "Here, take this pill," while the doctor is receiving incentives. We have an addicted society delusionally out of touch-- with its own body and how it functions, to begin with. 

Economically, if you are receiving your partner's pension, SS, and you are still working and earning, and you can not understand why someone else is going without on one income, but you are delirious in believing that while you or your family is doing well above the poverty level, its not your problem that someone else can not qualify for a loan to better their living condition and house for their family... You have lost all sensitivity to what the real American dream looks like. And yes, for every senior citizen who has worked their whole life and now is struggling to keep afloat, you better believe they deserve that 6000.00 credit. I saw one kid roll his eyes. I could have smacked him! I overheard one of my elderly customers months ago saying they had to take money out of their house for the year, so they knew they could afford groceries.

Yes, it's all a mess, but I implore you to look at your own behavior and motives... because the ugly is amongst us and it is residing disguised as acquaintances or family who are close in proximity to where you exist.

In the 32 years I have worked in the restaurant industry, these last 5 years have been met with challenges. Customer etiquette has changed, prices have risen in food costs, overhead between employees, and the cost to keep the building open have skyrocketed, how people tip in general or the way they want what they want and it doesn't matter to them that things can not be modified without them having to pay for the "change" in the way they order. Egos and too many chiefs without enough Indians, not taking into consideration how this affects everyone who walks into the building! Said with respect from my Business coach training, your brand, who you are... is this really the type of customer base you want? Is this really your target market? Is this truly the type of people you want representing what you are offering? A sale is not just a sale anymore. It's a statement! It's a mark on your reputation and the value you are presenting with the product. Are your employees a beacon of excitement when they walk through the doors or are they warm bodies on the floor, just there for a paycheck and the miserable working conditions? Are your customers of quality and integrity speaking highly from the experience they received? or are they there for the taking? Just to see what they can confiscate from you? Angles and knowing how to work the system to get it free? Apply that to any industry! #YKIYK

It's a mess, and I am tired of it. Burnt out and disgusted by the lack of consideration and the disrespect shown to industry leaders who have earned the right to say, "hey, kid, watch your mouth, I'll make your head spin faster than your mama can chase you around the dining room table with her flip-flop." I promise you I will call and raise her, with a wiffleball bat! Yeah, its that bad! This week was bad!

So, where do I go from here? Finishing my book, When He Had Her.  I am on my 4th round of edits. This time a glitch with the cover and not enough bleed room for the image print. That has been a challenge. The manuscript is ready to go if the cover is approved. That gives me anxiety. I have been published before, but nothing like this on this scale. I can not preface enough, fiction rooted in psychology and narcissistic behavior, and the effects and toll that it has taken on many. It's been a labor of love with a bittersweet ending. I have the next book in the works, Seaside Shore. The next too deals with psychological trauma, but more of a love story. It's a connection I hope the reader pulls for! 

Jake and Jess are the main characters. Her need for change, growth, and progress, and his aggravating mental assault on himself to remain the same. Cracking his code is not her problem; she has challenging projects in front of her, but she sees him all too well and the patterns in his life; not to be seen but to be recognized for valour, fitting in and belonging to a string of outfits that make him just like everyone else. Never given the opportunity or tools to individualize himself for his own strengths and identity. He is forged in obligation and resentment. It's a brutal tug of war with himself. A lifelong struggle, his instinct to be admired but yet detached. Jess shines light on him while he suffocates in the darkness of his hollow, empty life. Running away from everything and everyone who really sees him as the person he is--- himself. His own identity terrifies him~ without the men he surrounds himself with-- he can't identify with who he is. Jess just holds up the mirror and offers him a new blueprint. He isn't broken... the mechanism has been badly programmed.

LOL, a twisted love story. One y'all with pull for. 


Stay Tuned

Kitryn Marie

#writer #booktease #seasideshore 











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