Pretty In Pink... Perfect In Paisley!

 It's a terrible thing to put all your faith into a situation that never would yield an outcome you desire. While I have been on this rant about conformists, codependents, detachments, and avoidants, let me tell you; I am 110% sure I was sent in to give lessons to a variety of people that have failed miserably at the test they were given! Do not blame the teacher, the messenger, and or the means by which it was delivered but blame the student for not receiving the clarity or methodical reasons for learning something unfamiliar. Altering lifestyles and making way for something new is uncomfortable and at a depth most would not know how to function. “ In the practical art of war, the best thing of all is to take the enemy's country whole and intact; to shatter and destroy it is not so good . ” “To fight and conquer in all your battles is not supreme excellence; supreme excellence consists in breaking the enemy's resistance without fighting.” Some strategies seem like a fight ...

 Its Monday! It's cold! It's some mess between is it gonna snow AGAIN or is this bs rain gonna happen? It's Monday and the kinda tired I feel is indescribable. I have absolutely no energy in this type of weather. It took every bit of effort to pull myself out of bed this morning but with my solo dog...her whimpers that are getting more vocal by the day, screeching for me to let her out! Reluctantly moving a cat or 2, I fumbled to her crate. Its Monday! I am cold! Thank god there is no one here to talk with me. Shhh, please! Eeh eeh eeh... quiet! My morning routine has not veered in over a year. Let the dog out minus Bruce (the dog that just passed) manage cats, feed them, make coffee, read emails, check bank balances, check stats on social media, and then scroll tik tok while drinking my coffee in silence! The Little dog gets in her spot, I lay in mine with the heating pad, and the 2 of us zone until she says, "feed me" that long arm paw reaches up to let me know....

 At the end of all your relationships, have you found yourself saying, "you never wanted what I wanted? you only wanted what would work best for you... for your benefit" "You had no intention of ever altering your lifestyle" (because that lifestyle is easily familiar and very unhealthy and it is what you have done for a lifetime so why change it up now?)  It requires great change and effort to work towards big goals! It takes dedication and an independent modality to break away from the matrix, rewiring what you have been made to believe the American dream is: it leaves you sick, broken, and mentally distraught! We can add in family dysfunctions, abandonment, neglect issues, and narcissistic fathers, which have ensured a lifetime of alcohol abuse and addictions that are mimicked. So therefore a person can maintain their depressant, woe is me... it's someone else's fault behavior! Attractive right? Perfect attributes for gaining a happy life...and a loving pa...