Leaps Of Faith
I am sitting here this morning going over quite a few scenarios in my head. The psychological issues associated with money and those that attach to that mighty dollar. Once someone told me, "If you can't be happy you might as well make money" Where I think if you have nothing else to concentrate on or if you live your life in lack, or if somehow you were told as a child "if you do not have a measurable amount of the greens... you are not worth anything!" or is it your fear of not having it, nothing to keep you secure, stable or validated that keeps you in a perpetual motion of chasing it.
Money leaves you with the ease of convenience but it does not make who you are as a person. I watched my dad chase that dollar til he had so much that when he died; he really did want to take it with him. His own validation came down to how much money he could acquire. It was his own insecurity of having nothing growing up & he became obsessed with its commodities so it seemed nothing else mattered.
As a woman who has always had more heart than money, what about the girl that has nothing to offer but herself? Now do not mistake the girl trying to make something of herself so she is able to contribute in matters to society (making a difference) or her family (hands-on caregiving providing) or whoever she is involved ( offering some emotional and mental assistance to her partner taking on some of the responsibilities) What if money is not the glue that holds it all together? I am battling with this issue right now because I have had to deal with 2 very different scenarios over the last 11 years.
I recently walked off a gig that I held for 4 years. A very part-time job that at a point was efficiently beneficial. Although a small stipend hourly its gratuity helped in many areas of survival. Money is money. Either you have it or you don't. You live within your means and you come to terms with, if you don't need it...you cant buy it. Pretty plain and simple. That very part-time job as the one I held before offset all of my studying and all of my travels. Having dual objectives offers a variety of ways to live life. {things I teach in my business coaching classes. Having multiple streams of incomes BY DOING WHAT YOU LOVE}
So it seems since covid, the general population is living in fear and lack. Business ethics in foodservice and other small business' has been compromised and while I was asked to share my gratuities within this last year, it only benefited the house, making my survival impossible and the mental impact of picking up the slack for those that were benefiting from getting a share. It created havoc in my existence and my relationship going against my grain in the way I feel about money. Now the resolve is: if you want a person to work, that person expects to earn what they are working for. For the apparency and observation, It has been the house that is taking advantage of the staff so they can benefit to ignore all-state monies due.
Walking away was easy. Like I teach all of my creative-minded women groups if your livelihood is compromised or someone else is benefiting off of you and your hard work and the place or establishment is abusing your work ethics, why would you stay? Loyalty gets you nowhere and it certainly does not provide food on the table or the roof over your head. Change often comes quickly and sometimes snap decisions need to be made. You owe no one but yourself a thing! It's called integrity and self-respect!
It's only in that secular world a person is told they are supposed to stay and tolerate principles because of a corporate rule. Companies are set up to make money off the people who work for them. More than often very, highly-skilled, overqualified employees are paid next to nothing but made to believe they are valuable components to an entity. This was one of my biggest arguments with someone I was involved. Why would you stay in an environment that abuses your body physically, takes advantage of your skill and robs you of your time while you are babysitting those not qualified to sit in a wet paper bag? How much security do you need based on that small amount offered for your presence that gives you a slap in the face title? (when you know you are doing all the work) I might be opening a whole can of worms here but I know for facts other women have had this same argument with their significant too! Overtired unhappy men become unbearable to live with but they choose to stay for the dollar.
Over the last 8 years, I have more than tried to put a small business together. An eclectic approach to teaching, offering a variety of art classes, creating a line of merchandise inspiring other women to be brave and speak up about their stories and how they got onto a path... finding ways to put together a creative business plan so they are fulfilled. Having a soul purpose with a mission to create a happier existence. Money has to come out of the equation. You can not operate your dreams by constantly thinking what you don't have and holding on dearly to the $$$ you do have... It comes down to where do you want your legacy to be? Why and who are you living your life for? If money is the sole premise to your existence you're seeing things distorted. When you love what you do and you are creating a service that is needed, the money follows.
I am never without! I am blessed and I live a very charmed life. The girl that always has too much heart is and has always been enough and it's her principles that most can not fathom. It is not survival mode but having an existential accentuating life lived on her terms. I am a doer and a go-getter. I dream big and dream loud. What I see for my life and how I choose to participate in it always shows up for me. What I seek and have been seeking is also seeking me. Opportunities always present themselves and I do have a plethora of choices because I am not afraid and I am not attached to a paycheck or a false set of security that someone else tells me I need.
Dreams do not work if you do not take the chance to fly! Its called leaps of faith!
Be Happy Be Blessed,
Kitryn Marie
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