In This Life You Will Learn... Many Versions Of Yourself!
In this life, you learn to live many versions of yourself. With each phase of your life, you will be expected to adapt and perform in the manner needed at the time!
I can not believe the time that has passed. I can not believe all the things I have worked for and I have done and accomplished in the last several years. I can not believe all the things intentionally done to me and what I had to physically and emotionally deal with because of what was done to me. There are things the mind will not let you forget. There are things the physical body will never recover from ...
I have to ask when the past calls... "Is it saying anything worth hearing", when attempts to reach out are made and nothing is being said? Past behavior always presents itself in future behavior... and with my own eyes, I saw it! The wool can be pulled over the pig's eyes but in the end, the wolf is the wolf... always looking to gain whatever fix needed from someone else to chase that void. Let me reiterate... WHEN YOU HAD PERFECT... AT THE START... you don't go and trade it off with someone no one else wanted. Sadly and pathetically there is a part with in them self that they can never be happy with! You can not dress up a pig and call it a dream!
Life has a way of repeating what is not properly dealt with. History repeats it self if the lesson is not learned. (and that applies to ALL) If deceit has had its hand in any situation all the people involved will suffer and pay for the sins. It doesn't go away because it keeps presenting it self! Situations were never rectified so therefore that door still stays open! When there is NO closure... it still is open ended! Whoever has that foot in the door and when cowardly acts have presided over all the measures... there is a guilt with in one self that never leaves! They know exactly what they did and how it all was basically premeditated! and they have to live with the guilt of deceit... and when you tell one lie... you tell another and another and another... to try and cover up the horrific behavior. (so they can find some immeasurable way of making the horrible behavior ok to them self!)
EX: If I would have been picked up to be taken to the hospital in the timely manner needed. I would be living a completely different life! A situation would have been revealed and much better choices would have prevailed in that person's life but that is not how it played out... because someone's selfish motive couldn't be interupted from a night of carousing and frolicking with the unlikely sights of some ungodly cheap thrill. That selfish act on his part changed my whole existence... and what was caused is something he will have to deal mentally with and the guilt associated with that night's decision for the rest of his life because it was never addressed properly nor was it addressed after the fact when he had someone else move in his house behind my back, Cowardly never speaking the truth... deception set in to further his selfish motives!
And a new version of myself was born...
Let it go is a phrase most people really do not understand. It is easy for someone to say let it go... but when a post traumatic situation occurs the mind never let's go of that type of anguish. The hurt and the destructive situation burns an etched mark in the psyche where it is not able to forget and the feelings associated with what happened plays over and over and over in the mind because it can't find a place to go. That part of the brain meshes with the heart and it never finds resolve. (and further more when that person who caused that type of anguish still reaches out with NO accountability for actions, it further damages the trauma and the person has to relive it again and again and again)
I have come very far over the last several years. I have accomplished so much. Within all my travels I have reached all my goals in being successful in teaching, speaking and living my truths to better someone else's understanding. My in the "Studio Talks" and You Tube videos is reaching a wider audience. My classes now have grown to an outside venue... My intent was always to prove to myself, I was something much more than what someone once told me I wasn't.
Success is based on efforts put forth... living one's true passion because that is what is needed to do for "self" I owe no one any excuse on how I choose to live. If someone is worried about what I am doing then maybe they need to ask them self why they are worried about my actions? Guilt is a horrible pill to choke on when the truth is revealed! When you look in the mirror one would have to wonder "how do you live with your self?"
Yes, In this life, you learn to live many versions of yourself. With each phase of your life, you will be expected to adapt and perform in the manner needed at the time.
Watch me now!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
I can not believe the time that has passed. I can not believe all the things I have worked for and I have done and accomplished in the last several years. I can not believe all the things intentionally done to me and what I had to physically and emotionally deal with because of what was done to me. There are things the mind will not let you forget. There are things the physical body will never recover from ...
I have to ask when the past calls... "Is it saying anything worth hearing", when attempts to reach out are made and nothing is being said? Past behavior always presents itself in future behavior... and with my own eyes, I saw it! The wool can be pulled over the pig's eyes but in the end, the wolf is the wolf... always looking to gain whatever fix needed from someone else to chase that void. Let me reiterate... WHEN YOU HAD PERFECT... AT THE START... you don't go and trade it off with someone no one else wanted. Sadly and pathetically there is a part with in them self that they can never be happy with! You can not dress up a pig and call it a dream!
Life has a way of repeating what is not properly dealt with. History repeats it self if the lesson is not learned. (and that applies to ALL) If deceit has had its hand in any situation all the people involved will suffer and pay for the sins. It doesn't go away because it keeps presenting it self! Situations were never rectified so therefore that door still stays open! When there is NO closure... it still is open ended! Whoever has that foot in the door and when cowardly acts have presided over all the measures... there is a guilt with in one self that never leaves! They know exactly what they did and how it all was basically premeditated! and they have to live with the guilt of deceit... and when you tell one lie... you tell another and another and another... to try and cover up the horrific behavior. (so they can find some immeasurable way of making the horrible behavior ok to them self!)
EX: If I would have been picked up to be taken to the hospital in the timely manner needed. I would be living a completely different life! A situation would have been revealed and much better choices would have prevailed in that person's life but that is not how it played out... because someone's selfish motive couldn't be interupted from a night of carousing and frolicking with the unlikely sights of some ungodly cheap thrill. That selfish act on his part changed my whole existence... and what was caused is something he will have to deal mentally with and the guilt associated with that night's decision for the rest of his life because it was never addressed properly nor was it addressed after the fact when he had someone else move in his house behind my back, Cowardly never speaking the truth... deception set in to further his selfish motives!
And a new version of myself was born...
Let it go is a phrase most people really do not understand. It is easy for someone to say let it go... but when a post traumatic situation occurs the mind never let's go of that type of anguish. The hurt and the destructive situation burns an etched mark in the psyche where it is not able to forget and the feelings associated with what happened plays over and over and over in the mind because it can't find a place to go. That part of the brain meshes with the heart and it never finds resolve. (and further more when that person who caused that type of anguish still reaches out with NO accountability for actions, it further damages the trauma and the person has to relive it again and again and again)
I have come very far over the last several years. I have accomplished so much. Within all my travels I have reached all my goals in being successful in teaching, speaking and living my truths to better someone else's understanding. My in the "Studio Talks" and You Tube videos is reaching a wider audience. My classes now have grown to an outside venue... My intent was always to prove to myself, I was something much more than what someone once told me I wasn't.
Success is based on efforts put forth... living one's true passion because that is what is needed to do for "self" I owe no one any excuse on how I choose to live. If someone is worried about what I am doing then maybe they need to ask them self why they are worried about my actions? Guilt is a horrible pill to choke on when the truth is revealed! When you look in the mirror one would have to wonder "how do you live with your self?"
Yes, In this life, you learn to live many versions of yourself. With each phase of your life, you will be expected to adapt and perform in the manner needed at the time.
Watch me now!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
