A Long Time Coming
Really who knew? This was not what I had expected... I have always been driven by love but when love failed me big time, really what choice did I have?
It could have killed me but it didn't! My heart ripped to shreds by lies and deception... what woman wouldn't it have killed? Emotionally numb...and shattered. It has been a long haul to this new place! I have been lead blindly by intuition and faith... Onward and forward that was the only choice! It has been a long time coming!
Retrospect: "Kit what do you want to be when you grow up?" My answer, "A Star!"
What is a star? Something that shines! Something that glitters! Something that burns so bright NOTHING can dim its glow! Something that people are in awe of... something that rises high beyond what any force of nature can keep down!
How do you tell a person that has been so anxiety ridden and afraid for so long that there is another life, another way, another calm, and you no longer have to wait for the storm... it's done it's passed and you are about to experience a life no one could fathom to happen... Another STORY!
This last trip was something like that. I had an agenda awhile back... the goal for this year 3 trips! Wisconsin, Table Rock and thirdly was to be Albuquerque, New Mexico. That 6 hour stretch to see my sister in Wisc. and explore was a given! The kid and friend in tow was gonna happen and it was going to be time to set out on a clear journey. I had done it before time and time again.
The 2nd, Table Rock was set to happen with the kid... and he decided he didn't want to go. Another several hours in a car with his mom... he had ... had enough! And besides school was starting and he did not want to miss out that first few days of high school's social life as a teen! And The friend I have... had considered meeting me but his agenda conflicted and like always... complications. The heart always finds away to have a complication! Not giving up on my trip, I went all by myself! My big world, big girl approach was going to happen and I was to get in my car and do that 4 hour highway 44 stretch! I love that drive! I love that highway... I love the feel of that drive! I was going...
There is nothing more empowering than going somewhere for days on end by yourself!!!!
Table Rock and Branson is one of those experiences that once you do it and you become familiar with highway 65 and 76 the main drag... you can do it with your eyes closed. It all wraps around. Although I did get lost one night on 265... won't do that again but it did wrap me around to 76 an hour out of my way! But I did it!!!!!! Lost or not... I FREAKING DID IT!
I have to back track a story... when I was a little girl, mom and dad would take us to Table Rock. Dad would fish on the lake and mom, my sister and I would play at the pool. We would have bonfires and listen to night crickets and take in the wild life... this life style all of my life has been embedded in my DNA! So how could I have not enjoyed this trip by myself. I did what I wanted when I wanted to do it with no one to answer to! I fished, I laid in the sun on the dock in my bikini... I read, I wrote, I planned and schemed with the universe! I talked to my angels, my dad and I said a thankful prayer to my God! I also sent a powerful word to the universe on Karma to be served. ( as I was reaffirmed, it serves regardless!)
There is nothing like the feel of a road, the countryside, a dock, a lake and a fishing pole! I am my father's daughter!!! and the conversations I had with his spirit the whole time was enlightening! Although not hip on talking to myself... I felt at ease with the resounding messages that affirmed who I am, what I have become and what I AM GOING TO ACCOMPLISH! It is one thing to be an artist type with her head in the clouds but its another when you have been constantly told YOU CAN"T DO THAT! and to that I say, "WATCH ME NOW!"
For the last 3.5 years I have redefined life! and what I want to do with it... Reality has changed its perception and I am viewing everything with a brighter perspective. And although I wanted that other life something terrible I want this life so so so much more! Love will just now go on some odd back burner because it doesn't (for the time being) matter. Who ever wants to love me (when I say that is what I want) is going to have to stand aside and let my Zephyr burn bright. I GOT PLANS YA KNOW!!?? and if... he... when he comes along... is going to have stand somewhere with me and just let me do my thing! (I'll be home to cook at some point!)
My ideas are fresh! Not new but fresh... the goal always was to do art I just never saw it in this manner. With a food and beverage background it has been the bread and butter for surviving. The foundation for reality and the best learning experience any individual could have! When you know food and beverage you never go hungry and you always have a dollar in your pocket! When you are an artist, writer, photographer... you are fortunate when you can combine them all and go beyond "Just working a job" and now the goal to put all of it in motion... but let's add a strange perk... let's throw in some horses! I laugh and at this point, you whoever is reading is saying, "WTF is she talking about?"
I am about to embark on a dream beyond what anyone, even myself thought could happen. I see my dad belly laughing and shaking his head beyond belief! (In the next month I will be sharing more) and you too will be shaking your head!
It all has been cathartic, therapeutic and mind blowing... there are days I can't even fathom how this has all manifested but it has and it continues.
My trip to Albuquerque has been postponed and replaced with Nashville by end of year... and I may do that trip by myself also! It's the open road, the camera and the angle of the trip... the goal, the insights as well as the sights and sounds. A new story to write! The camera is a powerful tool... It sheds light on what needs to be exposed... a lot like a star!
So for now, (I humor myself) I am my own star in my own realty show! Follow along if you will... I won't quit... till I brightly shine on what needs to be show cased... Broadway still exist... all the while fame and fortune is on its way to meet up with me!
There is much more to come and although I have kinda left you's hanging... Stay tuned for this adventurous ride cuz it ain't over yet... by a long shot ;)! Giddy Up...
Til next time!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
It could have killed me but it didn't! My heart ripped to shreds by lies and deception... what woman wouldn't it have killed? Emotionally numb...and shattered. It has been a long haul to this new place! I have been lead blindly by intuition and faith... Onward and forward that was the only choice! It has been a long time coming!
Retrospect: "Kit what do you want to be when you grow up?" My answer, "A Star!"
What is a star? Something that shines! Something that glitters! Something that burns so bright NOTHING can dim its glow! Something that people are in awe of... something that rises high beyond what any force of nature can keep down!
How do you tell a person that has been so anxiety ridden and afraid for so long that there is another life, another way, another calm, and you no longer have to wait for the storm... it's done it's passed and you are about to experience a life no one could fathom to happen... Another STORY!
This last trip was something like that. I had an agenda awhile back... the goal for this year 3 trips! Wisconsin, Table Rock and thirdly was to be Albuquerque, New Mexico. That 6 hour stretch to see my sister in Wisc. and explore was a given! The kid and friend in tow was gonna happen and it was going to be time to set out on a clear journey. I had done it before time and time again.
The 2nd, Table Rock was set to happen with the kid... and he decided he didn't want to go. Another several hours in a car with his mom... he had ... had enough! And besides school was starting and he did not want to miss out that first few days of high school's social life as a teen! And The friend I have... had considered meeting me but his agenda conflicted and like always... complications. The heart always finds away to have a complication! Not giving up on my trip, I went all by myself! My big world, big girl approach was going to happen and I was to get in my car and do that 4 hour highway 44 stretch! I love that drive! I love that highway... I love the feel of that drive! I was going...
There is nothing more empowering than going somewhere for days on end by yourself!!!!
Table Rock and Branson is one of those experiences that once you do it and you become familiar with highway 65 and 76 the main drag... you can do it with your eyes closed. It all wraps around. Although I did get lost one night on 265... won't do that again but it did wrap me around to 76 an hour out of my way! But I did it!!!!!! Lost or not... I FREAKING DID IT!
I have to back track a story... when I was a little girl, mom and dad would take us to Table Rock. Dad would fish on the lake and mom, my sister and I would play at the pool. We would have bonfires and listen to night crickets and take in the wild life... this life style all of my life has been embedded in my DNA! So how could I have not enjoyed this trip by myself. I did what I wanted when I wanted to do it with no one to answer to! I fished, I laid in the sun on the dock in my bikini... I read, I wrote, I planned and schemed with the universe! I talked to my angels, my dad and I said a thankful prayer to my God! I also sent a powerful word to the universe on Karma to be served. ( as I was reaffirmed, it serves regardless!)
There is nothing like the feel of a road, the countryside, a dock, a lake and a fishing pole! I am my father's daughter!!! and the conversations I had with his spirit the whole time was enlightening! Although not hip on talking to myself... I felt at ease with the resounding messages that affirmed who I am, what I have become and what I AM GOING TO ACCOMPLISH! It is one thing to be an artist type with her head in the clouds but its another when you have been constantly told YOU CAN"T DO THAT! and to that I say, "WATCH ME NOW!"
For the last 3.5 years I have redefined life! and what I want to do with it... Reality has changed its perception and I am viewing everything with a brighter perspective. And although I wanted that other life something terrible I want this life so so so much more! Love will just now go on some odd back burner because it doesn't (for the time being) matter. Who ever wants to love me (when I say that is what I want) is going to have to stand aside and let my Zephyr burn bright. I GOT PLANS YA KNOW!!?? and if... he... when he comes along... is going to have stand somewhere with me and just let me do my thing! (I'll be home to cook at some point!)
My ideas are fresh! Not new but fresh... the goal always was to do art I just never saw it in this manner. With a food and beverage background it has been the bread and butter for surviving. The foundation for reality and the best learning experience any individual could have! When you know food and beverage you never go hungry and you always have a dollar in your pocket! When you are an artist, writer, photographer... you are fortunate when you can combine them all and go beyond "Just working a job" and now the goal to put all of it in motion... but let's add a strange perk... let's throw in some horses! I laugh and at this point, you whoever is reading is saying, "WTF is she talking about?"
I am about to embark on a dream beyond what anyone, even myself thought could happen. I see my dad belly laughing and shaking his head beyond belief! (In the next month I will be sharing more) and you too will be shaking your head!
It all has been cathartic, therapeutic and mind blowing... there are days I can't even fathom how this has all manifested but it has and it continues.
My trip to Albuquerque has been postponed and replaced with Nashville by end of year... and I may do that trip by myself also! It's the open road, the camera and the angle of the trip... the goal, the insights as well as the sights and sounds. A new story to write! The camera is a powerful tool... It sheds light on what needs to be exposed... a lot like a star!
So for now, (I humor myself) I am my own star in my own realty show! Follow along if you will... I won't quit... till I brightly shine on what needs to be show cased... Broadway still exist... all the while fame and fortune is on its way to meet up with me!
There is much more to come and although I have kinda left you's hanging... Stay tuned for this adventurous ride cuz it ain't over yet... by a long shot ;)! Giddy Up...
Til next time!
Meet Me In St. Louis,
Kitryn Marie
